A personal journey of life with a drug addicted child.
Something I never thought I would experience, but here I am.
Let's see how we end.

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Me

March 26, 2020
So what happens to a mother who has to throw her son in jail to save him? She breaks. And I did.  I cried every single day he was gone. I'm not a crier. My patients loving refer to me as ''The Warden''. I was raised by tough women, and had to find strength as…
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Recent Entries

  • Starting over
    March 26, 2020
    He was released from jail, and came home on January 3rd.  I felt like I could breathe again, but at the same time I was extremely anxious. I was so afraid he would end up running into, getting a call, or getting a text from the person he'd been dating, and then we'd be right…
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  • Gone
    March 26, 2020
    My son disappeared.  He was no longer answering calls or messages from any of us. I knew that it was bad when he was a no call no show at work.  He absolutely loved that job, and for him to just not show up indicated that this problem was way bigger than I originally thought.…
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  • December
    March 26, 2020
    The first week of December, my son started acting strange.  His moods were all over the place.  Very emotional.  High anxiety. Low lows. I expected he was using again, but I didn't want to believe it. He started acting even stranger.  Running down the street like someone was chasing him. Climbing...
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  • Asset 5
    My saving grace
    November 22, 2019
    She was not my favorite person in the beginning, and to be quite honest, I probably wouldn't have given her a fair chance had she not been pregnant with my grandson. I didn't know that in the end of their story, she would be my peace. My grandson, my son's son, was born in 2016.…
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  • Asset 5
    Drugs and a Motorcycle Gang
    November 22, 2019
    It was 2am when my door flung wide open and my terrified child was in my face. "Mom! MOM! We were out in the field behind the house talking when lights started coming on all over, so we started drove off and all these motorcycles started chasing us! It didn't matter where we drove to…
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  • Asset 5
    My Child is a drug addict
    November 22, 2019
    My child is a drug addict. It took me a long time to be able to say those words out loud. It's something I was in denial over for a long time I think. He smoked weed as a teenager.  Dabbled in some harder drugs, but I never saw it as a ''problem''. As he…
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  • Asset 5
    My Junkie Child
    November 21, 2019
    I didn't know how bad it had gotten until last year. I knew that he popped pills every so often, but I didn't know how that had gone from full time, to occasional, to full time, from pills, to heroin, and then on to meth. I didn't know that in less than a year, I'd…
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