In my early days on OD, I was writing the anger and the depression that I was hiding. These days, I've gotten better. Things have changed and I feel as if I might be in a better place. Bear with me as things continue forward in the journey of my life. Feel free to read and add comments if you choose.

Latest Entry

I’m Still Here

January 26, 2020
Dear Diary, I am so sorry for my last entry. I was in a very, very dark place. I was so afraid to be alone because I knew I was an absolute danger to myself. I have finally reached out and am starting to get the help I truly need, which is one of the…
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Recent Entries

  • No Fight Left
    January 1, 2020
    Dear Diary, Can't seem to shake this depression. Wondering if it's worth fighting anymore.   Your Friend, That Girl
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  • It’s Amore
    October 21, 2019
    Dear Diary, I've been away for too long. I really need to make more of an effort to get back on here more often.  Things are going very well though, especially with the man. Things have been progressing nicely. We've met each other's parents back in September. His parents are really nice, laid ba...
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  • It’s My Birthday.
    July 21, 2019
    Dear Diary, Today is my birthday. As always to this time of year, I feel sad. I feel sad because, yes, it's another year older, which means that the ones I love more in the world are also getting older. I hate to think that I'd ever have to live without those that I am…
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  • Happy
    June 29, 2019
    Dear Diary, So this is what happiness feels like? D is one of the most truly amazing men I have ever felt in my life. I know it's only been 2 1/2 months with him, but I am truly falling in love with him. Every day he makes me feel like I am the most…
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  • Forgiveness Is Not Easy
    June 8, 2019
    Dear Diary, So much on my mind lately. One of the biggest things is working on forgiveness. How do you forgive someone that isn't even sorry for what they have done to you? I know that to forgive is to free yourself, but I just cannot bring myself to forgive this one person. This person…
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  • Anxiety
    June 1, 2019
    Dear Diary, It has been a rough week with my anxiety. It's been so bad lately, and honestly I don't know what's brought it on. Yesterday, I almost had a full on panic attack in front of my man. Somehow he brought me out of it and calmed me down, but dammit, I did not…
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  • Good Enough
    May 22, 2019
    Dear Diary, I truly hate my mind these days. Here I am, happy, the happiest I've been in such a long time, and BAM! here comes the doubt and insecurity. I keep asking myself if I actually deserve this happiness? If I actually deserve this wonderful man that came out of nowhere? Why this man…
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  • Happy Mother’s Day!
    May 12, 2019
    Dear Diary, Today I got to spend time with some of the most important people in my life--my family. My siblings and I took my mom out for Mother's Day to one of her favorite places. It was such a nice time. I hope all mothers were able to spend some good quality time with…
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  • I’ve Chosen
    May 4, 2019
    Dear Diary, I know, it's been a while. I've been so busy though. The important thing is, is that I've been busy with a truly amazing person. As you recall from my previous entry, I had a decision to make. The ex or the manager. I chose the manager. The ex, well it turned out…
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