Recent Entries

• And You Haven’t Moved An Inch/Such That I Have Not Known

  March 21, 2023

  When I tell you I'm doing well you don't have any choice but to believe me, now do you. 'With your hand  In my hand So still and  Discrete' - Hozier

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• She Says/All She Needs is/Therapy

  March 12, 2023

  The big dog is taking me way too seriously as I wail to Mister that I don't want to rest and be taken care of and have my period I WANT TO BE PLOWED LIKE A PARKING LOT so good you find a hidden car everyone forgot about three months later! He cannot parse the difference between…

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• [Interlude]

  March 9, 2023

  One of the reasons I have never left this region is because of that thing where sometimes you walk out the door and do a quick double-scan of the woods because something about them is much sketchier than usual.

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• Said ;Don’t They Look at Peace/ Sometimes I Wish That Was Me;

  March 6, 2023

  Today I loudly, bitterly miss getting <just extraordinarily, raucously>drunk about my feelings. Plugged to the couch under a dog and a blanket with purple lips, glass in hand, noisily face leaking over Bones. I know it is a privileged, protected impulse to stop keeping up with events; but I...

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• I am/All That I’ll Ever Be/When You/Lay Your Hands/Over Me

  March 4, 2023

  I feel so incredibly guilty for being happy and well when everything is so very hard and terrible for everyone else. 'And just like me You've got needs And they're  Only A whisper Away' - Matchbox 20

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• ‘Ah/But I’m Singing Like a Bird/About it Now’

  February 23, 2023

  I am considering to myself that Mister coming home and medium-firmly requesting<not quite demanding> a sincere dick sucking is pretty big early progress for us. My responding with immediate reactions of delight and enthusiasm are a small, stable component of growing surety for him to be bra...

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• ‘I’ll be/Building a House/That You May/Never See’

  February 23, 2023

  Strolling past the 5 yo's bedroom<begsroom> I lock eyes with .                                                                                         …

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• I’m All Right/I Tell Myself Twice

  February 21, 2023

  The childs are with their <execrable>father for vacation week. I have no one to read to in the evening. Nowhere to pick up and drop off. No reason to wake early. 'When do we get to the part Where I can go home' I assigned myself social obligations this week that I do not want…

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• ‘All/I Want/Is/Love/Eternally/With Your Heart Facing Me’

  February 15, 2023

  We are neck deep in the dog balls of winter and I cannot catch air. I know<intellectually> that I cannot personally make all five of us happy and hale single handedly but every day I wake up and try and try and try. We must imagine Sisyphus happy is the thing. The only boulder between…

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