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Scars

August 17, 2018
We all carry physical and emotional scars. see my lovely left hand? Nice two inch scar! The story behind that one is pure nerd! I was 14 and my grandmother had purchased my nerdy self a model of Star Trek’s USS Enterprise. I love models and I was thrilled to put this one together. I…
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