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With Comfort

January 21, 2022
Love. I have remembered some things that I had forgotten. Because I believe it is polite to share both my struggles and my comforts, I intend to share them. I know that not everyone is religious. And I know that not everyone who professes religion believes the same. I do not mind if your beliefs&...
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  • In Gusts
    January 19, 2022
    Love. Tomorrow is my wife's birthday. I have planned a number of surprises for her. I should have asked her before today if she liked surprises. Her words told me she would try to like them, but her sounds told me she did not prefer them. Oh well. I have stopped unnecessary talking. It's mostly&h...
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  • In Sum
    January 16, 2022
    Love. I wish I had more words for you. Many ideas, but only few words. I will do my best. It is difficult to be caretaken. It is difficult to be of age, yet still be on apron strings. I have always been prideful and stubborn. I have often felt the desire to be independent,…
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  • Without Fog
    January 11, 2022
    Love. It is good to write with a clearer mind today. My sleep schedule has much improved. I learned from my friends that we have very differing ideas on what a healthy sleep schedule is. I grew up in a poorer-than-I-understood-at-the-time rural area in the foothills of North Georgia. In our area,...
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  • A Question of Existance
    January 10, 2022
    How do you ask a consensual question? LISTEN. These are the only words I have right now. And some of them are right. Look at this: "consensual question". Have you ever thought about those two words together before? Did you ever consider the implied opposite: a non-consensual question? Trying to c...
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  • Under Winter
    January 10, 2022
    Love. I have a fascination, perhaps an unhealthy preoccupation, with words. I know many. I was gifted as a child with a lengthy and accurate memory, and I grew up among a generation of older adults who also seemed to share my fascination to a certain degree. Just as kids might challenge each othe...
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  • In Waking
    January 7, 2022
    Love. Throughout my struggles as documented here, I have sought a new therapist. I finally found one. I am very hopeful to begin a new round of treatment. It may not "fix" me, because I don't totally believe I need to be fixed. I believe I have my own unique way to love people. Maybe…
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    In Pools
    January 4, 2022
    Love. I remain breathing. I'm learning to float. One day I will swim. I miss all of you terribly. I know I have only been here a short time, but it is no understatement for me to say that I love each of you whom I have interacted with. But in this also, I will…
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  • Happy New Year
    January 2, 2022
    Love. I know that the first day of the year is the same as any other day - 24 hours in a day with 3600 seconds in each hour. It's just like any other day, with all the same potentials to love someone, to comfort someone, to spend time with someone, to remember someone after…
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    At Peace
    December 31, 2021
    Love. I did not go looking for words, but they found me. It was a story that I will tell later if it is important. I remembered to breathe. I hope to continue to remember to breathe in all things. I learned that not everyone learns to breathe and how to breathe as I do.…
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