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now & then.

April 5, 2020
here we are, diary, in the middle part of the unkindest month. our - not their. after years of using our devious wiles and prayers and wit to survive the cruel shipwreck, we remember the day the tide found us dreaming: it sucked us out to sea. now that's done. we are dead and resurrected…
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  • February 4, 2020
      "today was a good day." in fact it wasn't a hard or awful day, in spite of early morning commute w paul, full with his lament. it wont seem possible, but it is true:  a week past he lost his lady friend - after some doings of  her, the slut, impregnating herself by another…
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  • o children of the dusk
    February 2, 2020
    lately i review covers of our scripture by our singers. here is one. particularly lush and beautiful cover of leonard, who passed. some say i named my grown son after this writer of songs. it isn't true. it was the sunniness of the lion reference, and the young conqueror. speaking of the grown ch...
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  • time without
    January 8, 2020
    new year. a thaw of this ice - took barefoot walk in the frosty grass at midnight and tossed some pink, perhaps artificially pink, salmon out for the beasts to lock their jaws around. i am sorry if it was that - an chemically enhanced bless'ed fish. but it is all ii had to offer,…
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  • anniversary.
    December 27, 2019
    i've painted it in other pages, how it went. its not necessary to say it here. it is finally out of reach - and i look, not back, but far off, as if to those distant hills. i see the final days of those long celebrations. these are the festivities of my banishing! i am…
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  • o the snow & other things.
    December 24, 2019
        i tossed a small savory fruit into the snow outside, watched it roll a few inches, & nestle into the cozy resting place of its fate. i suppose fruit experienced that as a sort of falling, but it skimmed the snow so beautifully, & a little celebration of snow rose up as snugg...
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  • moon & pleiades.
    December 21, 2019
    midnight: the hour goes by. i lie alone. -Sappho . . . i don't know what to do. two states of mind in me. -Sappho
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  • .. s n o w ..
    December 19, 2019
    so much frost and new scrims of ice and so much snow on the cold road tonight - even a new single slippery coat of snow new-fallen -  on the platform when I stepped off the train tonight. and the sky was the black of blue, that most dark blue of a moonless bright star…
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  • & some momento
    December 11, 2019
    ii had a notion so i came here but with some effort i came here! how to explain? on a recent night i conceived some sorry conceit - a hope. i gleaned the thinnest hope from nothing .. it is just that it pitifully occurred to me that all the sorrow might lift, this long…
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  • o this.
    October 27, 2019
    o its upon us, june. .. this october has come and gone quick, and the rest of the news – I recite it but soundlessly. do not appeal to the old tender ear, that is dead of want of news. this october has witnessed something like a return of health. i’ve walked my poor heart…
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