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• No Energy

  May 29, 2025

  So another day has come and gone. I sit in my room  thinking over the day and how tired i was.  I cancled my Virtual with my doctor today after getting into an argument with my sister about the virtual after she woke me from a nap. She and dad had already talked and she…

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• THUNDER & RAIN

  May 27, 2025

  Sitting here in my room looking at the pictures on the wall and the mess of clutter I have yet to go through. The tv is on with its roku screensaver going by. I have no idea what I want to watch. I think I hear thunder but its far away.. It might be raining…

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• Strawberries

  May 23, 2025

  47 years old and still to this day eatting a bowl of strawberries takes me back to a time when i was younger on my Oma's back porch eatting freshly picked strawberries from her garden. While she slaps my little hand away for eatting to much.. (smiles at the thought..) i ate almost half the…

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• Collage..

  May 21, 2025

  A few mins peace and daydreams were disturbed by the sound of the front door opening. To my surprise it was my nephew with a big smile on his face, walking tall as ever. "Hi I juat thought I'd come see you now while he's out.." draps around the counter leans back and tells me…

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• Invited by facebook

  May 19, 2025

  So I called my sister today. To talk about the facebook invite to the graduation party Saturday night. I found out it wasn't even gonna be next door but down the streat at a friend's house. (A friend of my sisters that is when she needs something.) To which we can't go, or should I…

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• Lost things

  May 16, 2025

  My eldest niece came over on her day off and talked to me for a few mins. I always enjoy her visit.. she gives the best hug and she can lift your spirits like a ray of sunshine. But today i found myself bothered and annoyed that i couldn't find my address book. My sister…

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• Family

  May 13, 2025

  An end to another day. I finished reading all the entries. The one that struck most was the one about fighting with my mom. It will be ten years (come September) since she passed away from diabetes and a broken hip the year before. Boy do I miss the days we would cook together, laugh,…

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• Where to start.

  May 11, 2025

  I can't believe its been 19 years since I've written anything on this site. Or even why it pop up in memory last night. But here I am.  Looking back reading my past entries much has changed and yet still some things never do. Shakes my head at myself.  I guess in some way you…

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• Right Here

  August 4, 2006

  Right here waiting.. you'd find me confused lost in thoughts, debating what is it you see?   what do you hope for? what do you want from me? sitting still, waiting for more your taunting words won't let me be.   I can't sleep, can't eat tausing and turning my heart skips a beat. The&hel...

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