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• Words that echo

  June 16, 2025

  It’s strange how silence can become louder than any argument. Lately, I feel like I could pour my heart out all over again scream every truth I’ve held in  but I know it would fall on deaf ears. Her words echo in my head: “I’m fully aware you’ve moved on.” But I haven’t. Not fully.…

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• Nikki

  June 16, 2025

    I can feel you in my lungs, feel you in my veins Bloodstream only way to make it to my brain I tried some others but, man, they just not as good as you Going crazy 'cause I only feel thus good with you... Not about addiction. About someone who became everything, comfort and…

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• New week

  June 15, 2025

  Today I will be letting go not with noise or drama, just quietly, in my own way. The letter isnt for a reaction. It is for me. Something to mark the end of a chapter I held onto longer than I probably should have. But I don’t regret it. I loved fully, even when it…

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• Bye old life. Hello new

  June 15, 2025

  Tomorrow, I drop the letter off. My final goodbye. Not because I want to, but because I need to. Because holding on has only hurt me, and dragging my heart through this any longer feels like punishing myself for loving too deeply. I probably don’t need the letter. I’ve said everything I needed to...

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• The truth behind her name

  June 14, 2025

  You joked about Brooke yesterday Said “Go talk to Brooke” like it was nothing Like I hadn’t just stood there asking to talk to you I know that wasn’t just a joke I know it was pride, pain, maybe even a little jealousy And I don’t blame you But I told you the truth anyway…

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• Talking to myself.

  June 14, 2025

    Just dropping in here to talk to myself I guess. Still writing messages in our old chat even though I know she’ll never see them. I miss using Paired. I miss how my face would light up when I saw she'd been online, or when her name popped up with a call or a…

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• The villain in a love story

  June 14, 2025

  I think I'm finished, end of the line Not just because I’m tired but because there’s nothing left in me to give. I’ve poured my heart and soul into trying to fix this. Again and again. I’ve sent flowers. I’ve written words that came from the deepest places inside me. I’ve apologised for things I&...

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• Still real… still pain

  June 14, 2025

  Today was a wave of emotions I’m still trying to process. So much happened in such a short time, and I’m left sitting in the aftershocks, wondering what any of it really means. She saw my car at Brooke’s. I’m still not sure how she knew. That caught me off guard. Maybe someone told her.…

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• A soul mate out of reach

  June 14, 2025

  She didn’t get my message this morning. I’m still blocked. But then she came next door to grab the last of her stuff And I got a few minutes with her God, seeing her was everything Holding her. Hugging her. Kissing her forehead over and over I didn’t want to let go. I couldn’t It…

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