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Trying to come down from this high

March 17, 2024
I finally went on a date with this guy last night and I am pretty sure we pretty much fell in love lmfao. We have “known” each other for years. He’s a friend of my ex, sorta. They went to school together and they kept in touch on the socials but aren’t FRIEND-friends. So during…
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