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• Whats wrong with me

  May 11, 2022

  On one hand at don't want a relationship. I dont need someone to come into my life and get in the way of what im trying to do. Or bitch about how much i work. On the i miss the felling of knowing that theres someone on this planet that knows the real me and…

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• Thoughts

  April 21, 2022

  I havent really tried to organize my thoughts as i write them here. My brain seems so fogged sometimes it like i cant even organize them in my head. Like im in a fog. It hurt that none of the ppl i actually have contact with didnt say happy birthday. It hurts that b hasnt…

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• Why

  April 18, 2022

  Its still the same with S. He texts love you every once in awhile. Nut otherwise nothing again so ive desided since hes keeps going hot cold on me ill just keep it cold. Hes on fb all 5he time so hes just choosing to not say hi. I actually went on a date. he…

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• Teenage love return

  April 6, 2022

  Dear ---- What is there real reason.ya it romantic to think that what you say is real but noone stays in love with someone threw 25 years of no contact. What do you get out of this we live too far apart for physical contact, you know im broke, there is nothing hi can do…

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• Why

  March 21, 2022

  Nothing feels real anymore. I want a life. I want to love crazily again have that closeness again, that fire but I'm only attracted to guys that are bad for me. Being damaged I don't have the confidence to go for normal. I don't want normal I'm no a normal person. I ask for to…

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• Questions

  March 1, 2022

  Why would a guy I was very close with when I was a teen and my mom was sick message me after not seeing each other for almost 30 yrs just to tell me he's loved me his whole life and then for the rest of it talk to me like I'm scum not once…

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• Thoughts R

  February 27, 2022

  Today was my long day at work and the only way I can make sure I get up at 3am is to stay up. It actually easier when I close the night before. I've got most the inventory in the back figured out now, I don't don't have any excuse not do the office work…

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