I am a by-product of the life I've lived and from the people I've encountered.

I am as fucked up as the rest of you are.

I am, I said.

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Just Call Me Missus Magoo!

October 15, 2020
I finally got into the eye doctor today. It's been at least 3-years since I've seen one and I've been off my eye drops since then. Turns out my glaucoma isn't as bad as I had thought it was going to be and there's no damage to my eyes from diabetes yet either. That was…
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