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• Mechanics Daughter

  May 13, 2021

  My dad died of brain cancer in 2013.   It's in all my medical records that my dad had brain cancer.  That his sister died of breast cancer.  My moms mom and her sister had breast cancer also.  So, I wanted to know if I had the BRCA gene.  I have always been a little…

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• Gratitudes

  April 30, 2021

  I was told I needed to write a journal and I used to but when I went back and reread it, I would always want to kick my own ass.  I am such a private person, so keeping this journal open is killing me.  I never post on social media.  Last night I even had…

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• Forward

  April 29, 2021

  I am reading this book about bouncing back after being in a vortex of down.  What happens when you have had multiple downs?  I feel like for me I have to work through those downs because I never have before. This particular author was sexually assaulted and she was able to justify it when one&hel...

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• Processing

  April 28, 2021

  I have read a lot of others entries and some are so negative.  I think the world is just shitty right now, but makes me wonder if some people just come here to talk shit about people in their lives.  Of course I have problems with my husband, of course I get my feelings hurt,…

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• Checklists

  April 21, 2021

  I'm overwhelmed today.  I am have test that I need to take to get certified so that I can go back to work eventually.  It's been three years. There was an incident at the job I had.  I was being sexually harassed, not the first time, I reported it.  Long story short, he was friends…

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• Not So True Love

  April 20, 2021

  ******** Save your judgements and read at your own discretion. My first boyfriend as I mentioned cheated on me because I wouldn't have sex with him.  There was a lot of pressure.  His 13 year old sister was having sex and I was at 14 and 15.  He even once said "put out or get…

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• A little about me

  April 19, 2021

  I grew up fairly normal I thought.  Singly mom, youngest of three.  I am sensitive, insecure, private but I fake it really well.  I am average in pretty much every way.  I don't get angry, I hold everything inside until it comes out in tears.  If I ever do scream or yell, there is something…

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• Parental Units

  April 18, 2021

  Growing up was pretty normal I guess.  My parents were separated before I was born, but tried to make it work and then divorced by the time I was two.  So I don't remember my dad ever being around.  My sisters do.  My oldest remembers the fights I guess.  I don't remember a lot from…

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• Intro – First Memories

  April 18, 2021

  I don't know where to start...  I guess I will start with I am just a nobody girl, well woman now.  I grew up the youngest of three girls of a single mother, who was divorced from my philandering father.  I was always different than my sisters.  They had dark curly hair with blue eyes…

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