I am married and still trying to figure life out. I need to vent and get many things off my chest. I have been through a lot and even though I have lots of support there are still many things I feel I cannot share and things I need to get off my chest without being judged directly.

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I am Trying!

March 26, 2024
 you gotta but in the work too!" (I don't know who said it and if I am quoting it right but by doing nothing, I cannot expect good things to happen, right? So, in the past 2 years I have been trying...       But it isn't enough! So, this morning I booked to…
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    March 26, 2024
      A few weeks ago, my Rabbi met with an Imam at a Religious gathering where the 2 leaders shared a meal and a talk about each other's religions. And of course, the two realized how similar the 2 are. Anyway, something they discussed was fasting.  Just before Purim there was a day of fast&hel...
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  • I Backed Out!!
    March 23, 2024
    I get home at 19h25 on Friday night and open the door to him snoring. While trying to be quiet and not wake him up I made some noise and he woke up. I am lying in bed and he rolls over to tell me he is hungry and asks what am I cooking. He…
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  • Stuck!
    March 22, 2024
    That is what I am! I am stuck! Besides not being where I thought I would be at my age I am slowly coming to realize that I am just not really happy and the sad thing is that I don't know what to do about it...well I do know what to do but just…
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  • I Want More!
    March 14, 2024
    I Want more... This year (well the end of the year) will mark 20 years since high school. And There isn't much I can show for myself... I mean I survived a Car Accident...so I can walk! I can Think for myself! I no longer have Short Term Memory! although old age is maybe kicking…
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  • I am a twisted sister!
    February 26, 2024
    Okay I am nothing like the band...I don't know their music at all...nor am I anything like Yang and Grey...   I have been trying to binge watch the whole series of  I am only on season 9 now...finishing it off but don't think I will get through all 19 seasons before season 20 starts in…
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  • Giving Up!
    February 25, 2024
    I wish I was strong enough to make the right decision. Being with him is hurting me so much. Spent most of the day crying...even in front of him...we were shouting at each other and the more I was going on about what is bringing me down and what made me upset this week and…
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  • I Can’t Drink Because…
    February 23, 2024
    ...I am pregnant. I am not pregnant! And I really wish I was. Today I stopped taking my Contraceptive Pill  and in 30 days' time I need to go for my blood tests for my Fertility Doc. Every day I am either obsessing over pictures of babies on  and ...and then I go into a depression when I…
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  • Can’t Be Love…
    February 21, 2024
    They say love is supposed to set you free Give you wings to fly They say love is supposed to hold the key To life and eternity Love is such a lie. Well at least for me it is. People tell me they love me, but then I feel so used by them! My own…
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  • Mind #%@* Pt5
    February 21, 2024
    I get woken up at like 6am in the morning, by a from my  asking for money, so she can get to walk. I get to work and read a , from my Bio Mom. So I call her and the first thing she says to me when she answers the phone...    So, before I have…
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