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12/27/21

December 27, 2021
I can't wait to quietly exit this city and never come back unless I absolutely have to. My holiday was ruined by multiple people, two of which were on amphetamines and basically invaded my space.  I wasn't sober and when I'm not sober, I unfortunately turn into a people pleaser. They knew I was n...
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