I'm formerly known as nicolette_meadows (or Nicolette Fuller) my married name. I came to OD when I was about 16/17 years old, I'm currently 33. I'm married with a little boy who isn't so little anymore. I work as a childcare manager as well as an art teacher for the city. I love writing, drawing, art of any kind. I'm sarcastic, blunt, honest, loyal, and simply have no idea what to write in these things.

Latest Entry

Dye Job And A Funeral

June 22, 2018
So for the summer I decided to actually and FINALLY do something fun with my hair, I dyed it purple. This is an actual conversation that I had with my mother tonight. Mom: "So what are you up to for the night?" Me: "James is going to dye my hair." Mom:  "Oh what now?" Me:…
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Recent Entries

  • An Entry About Anxiety
    June 1, 2018
    I have so many friends who suffer horribly from anxiety. I tell them I understand and I get the dirty look from them. I indeed suffer from anxiety, some days the idea of leaving my house to do something on my own is absolutely draining... but I still do it. The last anxiety attack that…
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  • What is there to write?
    May 26, 2018
    I thought I needed OD the entire time it was gone, there were so many days where I thought "if only I could vent on my diary." Now it's back and I barely write at all. Maybe it's because I've come to the conclusion that there's certain facts in my life that I need to…
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  • Feeling A Little Stressed
    May 6, 2018
    Life- When you think about having an absolute mental breakdown because your stress level is so high that you just want to snap, scream, and take a week off from life in a nice cozy padded room but your rational says "we can't afford that, besides it'll get us absolutely no good." Finances are bey...
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  • Black Sheep
    April 28, 2018
    I feel like I'm still the absolute family outcast, like I'm on the other side of the bridge while everyone else stands looking at me, judging me. Even nights like tonight, it was Dante's 8th birthday and I had invited my pareny ts, omi and brother over for cake at our place. I had invited…
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  • Dear Parents, there are still people out there who care
    April 20, 2018
    Dear Parents, There are still people out there who care about your kids and want what is best for them. People who are genuinely kind to other people (and younger people) because that's simply who they are. I was put in a bit of an odd position today that really made me think. While I…
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  • I Would Do It All Over Again
    April 19, 2018
    I had a dream last night, more like a nightmare. I dreamt I was 16 again, I woke up in my old bedroom in Crawford, alone. All my old drawing still hung on my wall. I wondered where James was, I ran down to my old computer and went on MSN (relic mmm?) he was…
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  • Child Of My Soul
    April 18, 2018
    Dante's 8th birthday is coming up next week, it's crazy to think how fast time has flown by. Indeed with motherhood there's always some frustration and bad days but all around he has been my blessing. I see so much of myself in him that it's crazy. He's a kid who loves everyone, wants to…
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  • Run
    April 12, 2018
    So like any human being when I get stressed out I do crappy things like eat bad food and over indulge. Today that enough of that... I woke up with the mindset that I was tired of being tired and feeling stressed so I do what I find fixes me in every way. I went…
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  • Life Gets Messy
    April 11, 2018
    So after the car accident the cat needs to go to the vet. $86 vet visit Sunday night. This is after the annoyance of blowing my tire and James having to replace it twice (once with the spare and then with the summer tire once we got home.) Cat was having constipation issues and was…
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