"To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To hope is to risk pain.
To try is to risk failure,
But risk must be taken,
Because the greatest hazard in life
Is to risk nothing."
--Leo Buscaglia

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such a waste

November 8, 2018
So if you know me you'd probably know that I'm a pretty cynical person, especially after having worked in healthcare for several years.  Hospitals bring out the worst in people, and the system, as it is, is so abused and broken...and sometimes the kids too, by their terribly incompetent or neglec...
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