Recent Entries

• Midlife Crisis?

  April 18, 2018

  Honest to goddess, I can see how midlife crisis is a thing. I’ve been at my job 10 years. I am a super successful at my job. A job that’s a feel bad about yourself job where the company reminds you of any flaw that you could possibly ever have and reminds you of what…

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• Vacation <3

  July 9, 2012

  I left my paper diary at home. There is too many people in this house that Im not normally around. Im in myrtle beach with my family and my most recent bf is flying down on thursday. I cant wait to see him! Its crazy! I know that was trying to not date anyone for…

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• The year of Me

  May 29, 2012

  So, my therapist wants me to keep a journal called the year of me. Im going to a therapist because I want to be a better person. Kind of like life coach for me. I fell bad in a way because I take up an hr a week of a very busy and important lady…

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• Stober

  May 23, 2012

  This is my first sober entry. Im usually stoned, but today Im too sick to smoke.  I guess I should explain what happened with Alex when he got the bright idea to go thru my phone. I had already quit talking to all the guys that lived around here. I was planning on going back…

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• The Beginning of the End

  May 16, 2012

  If I try to pinpoint the exact day that was the beginning of the end, I am not sure that I could; except for maybe our first date! I had avoided loving him and tried to keep thing casual and not emotional with Aex, but we just sucked each other in like a vortex. I…

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• Battleship

  May 15, 2012

  Its funny how things change so quickly...its been three weeks exactly that Alex held me in his arms and told me how important I was to him and how much he loved me. Today our conversation consisted of vicious voices and alot of ruffled feathers to make both of us look bigger and scarier to…

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• My 9 month lesson

  May 14, 2012

  I have been saying to myself for the last 9 moths every time I am upset or high that I should start a diary....this seemed the best way of all my options. What changed today? I decided to smoke a bowl after a long, emotional and cranky day work. Being apart from alex the last 19 days&he...

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• The second coming

  May 14, 2012

    Its so odd when I think of the relationship that I had with Alex after I returned from Dubai and he decided to stay after he highly suspected what was between me and my relationship with Alok in Dubai. Its  like I had made some odd commitment to him. He expected me to stop…

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