My diary has been here since 2005. I have always used it to reflect and process. Writing has been the best therapist for me, though I have actually had some excellent therapists, as well. I took a 12-year break and recently began using it as a launch pad for writing a memoir.

Until 6/23/2019, I was OnionGirl. See entry of the same date for why the change.
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Depressed in My Body?

March 25, 2024
I have struggled with depression and anxiety for most of my life.  I’ve gotten pretty good at managing it.  I know what things usually calm me down or pick me up.  I know the conversations to have with myself. What I’m currently experiencing is some weird kind of depression in which I just want t...
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Recent Entries

  • Give Me a Reason
    December 29, 2023
    The only reason I'm out of bed, this morning, is that I have the urge to write.  I got up.  God dressed.  Took meds.  Fed cat.  Ate raisin bran. Now I sit in front of this computer trying to decide what I want to write about.  I need to finish up the invoice for December…
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  • Love. That is the Greatest Commandment.
    December 24, 2023
    On December 18, the Vatican announced a new declaration approved by Pope Francis that opens the path for LGBTQ+ people’s relationships to be blessed in the church.  You can read the text of it here. I have a lot of respect for this Pope.  I think he practices what he preaches, which is that “God ...
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  • If They Would Let Me make her HeadStone from a toilet…
    December 11, 2023
      My teen years were mostly awful.  My parents were doing and dealing meth.  They’d have drunken brawls in the middle of the kitchen.  There was a lot of screaming and a lot of ugliness, and Teri and Bill were right in the middle of it all. I think what was most painful about that…
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  • It Got Me! 😐
    November 15, 2023
    Despite my best efforts, I have covid. Fortunately, I have a PCP who knows my history and is amazing about checking and replying to emails. Drew is out to get my Paxlovid and some soup. I'm currently feeling sorry for myself, because there is no way I will risk exposing my family to this just&hel...
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  • ……
    September 30, 2023
    I can’t believe that it’s finally here.  On the 14th of October, Drew and I will be getting married. And I am so freaking stressed! I can’t find my dress!  We’ve moved our hoard twice since our original wedding date.  I thought it was in a specific suitcase, but it’s not! I learned after my…
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  • How Could We Ever Forget?
    September 11, 2023
    I really hate this day.  It's something I'm almost afraid to admit, but that day was so awful, I don't want to memorialize it every year. I was in the classroom that day.  Throughout the day, I had more than 150 students in my classroom.  They were scared.  They were confused.   We all were.  And...
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  • No Interest My Ass!
    July 19, 2023
    After years of refusing to have credit cards, I have learned that having one and paying it off monthly keeps me from screwing up my checkbook and builds my credit. So since I have good credit now, I have a fancy new Chase Visa card. I have used it to pay for our honeymoon, which…
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  • Don’t Assume
    July 14, 2023
    This entry began as a rant about one thing, and turned into a rant about another thing.  This, folks, is what it's like in my head.  Enjoy. People still look at me and think I'm younger than I am. When they see me on a mobility scooter, they raise their eyebrows. When they see me…
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  • Stop the World…
    June 17, 2023
    The time between the start of a school day and the end of a school day seemed like a lifetime when I was a school kid.  I never started liking school until 8th grade, when I finally found a home. Today, a whole school year passes by before I realize it.  I know that the…
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