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• Magic Moments

  July 2, 2012

  *sigh* Magic moments.  Love is a great and beautiful thing.  Such a beautiful emotion.  Changes reality, makes it magical.  All from one person.  Heh.  I'm scared because I know that, if and when this ends, it's gonna hurt like hell.  I'm gonna feel like dy...

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• High

  June 29, 2012

  Because I'm crazy about him...and because he says he loves me... I feel awesome.  High.  This is so good.  But so fragile.  Passion = purpose for me.  Beyond content.  I've got a melody and the rhythm changes with my whims.  Life is mine.  I own it.

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• Feed Me to the Fire

  June 27, 2012

  I think I have a gift in the way that I love, in the intensity and the duration.  I assume the best of people, and I love like a song, like legend and fairytale.  It's a great thing to be loved like that, even if it doesn't last.  To be able to say that someone loved you&...

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• Ah, Passion

  June 27, 2012

  So I went up to New Jersey to meet him.  Mmm.  Now, I'm back home and we're dating.  Heh.  I'm just waiting to get hurt.  How sad is that?  I can't NOT do what I do, what I plan to do...I can't NOT fall in love.  I can't not take chances, can...

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• One More Go

  June 18, 2012

  I am so hooked.  Goddamn, it feels awesome!  I want to meet him so badly.  He could potentially eclipse Cody.  It's definitely possible. I have a few insecurities about my age, but at the same time, it's like...I know I'm a one of a kind.  It just depends on the type...

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• Crush

  June 9, 2012

  A crush.  That's all it is.  Some guy I met online a few years ago that I started playing Diablo III with.  All logic tells me to quit being retarded...he lives halfway across the country and is 22....almost the same situation that got me to Texas in the first place, except he...

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• Meh

  May 28, 2012

  Haven't written much on here lately.  I still miss Cody.  Almost 6 months since I've spoken to him at all.  I've been glutting myself on flares of passion and highs I can get from music.  Sometimes, music doesn't even touch me hard enough so I get drunk and amplify i...

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• *Sad Face*

  February 17, 2012

  I work at a bar. It has a lot of older patrons.  I'm 29. I get told all the time how beautiful I am.  I regularly get told that I'm the most beautiful "young lady" they've seen.  And I can't help but wonder if the reception of beauty changes over time.  I used t...

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• Giz Me Affections Nao!

  February 12, 2012

  I'm just going to be as blunt as possible because there really is no delicate way to put this. I"ve come to a point in my life to where I expect more, especially out of guys.  I know the kind of heartbreak they are capable of and I'm just not willing to go through it…

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