I am currently living with my parents again.  They are helping me raise my beautiful baby boy.  His father lives in a different city, not too far away and is still very involved in his life.  We talk everyday but I don't believe it's going anywhere.  We pretty much talk for the sake of our son.  And that's okay with me.  I don't want him walking away like my father did so I'll be civil as long as he is involved in our son's life.

Motherhood is hard.  Much harder than I anticipated.  I knew it would be hard, since I work with kids, but us daycare worker's have it incredibly easy haha.  I still love being a mother and my son is fabulous, and once I catch up on sleep, I can really enjoy it. :)

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It’s been a very long time.

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 It's been a very long time. I just really need a place to vent.  So this guy I have a child with, we got back together march 2010 after spending time with our son and getting to know eachother again. We lasted a year and a half about. Through this year and a half, he…
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