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• p.olyethylene.

  March 21, 2006

  a veil of toxins, an obvious tryst, hand on waist, lips on mouth, like she's never been kissed. what we feel should not be tangible, thick like your words, they become her hope and espoir, like nothing she's ever heard. so why does she hide her face in shame? she feels so alone in this…

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• f.orget.

  March 16, 2006

  give me any small gasp of breath, so that i'll remember how to breathe. i'm like an automaton, and my brain has begun to seize. rushing, pushing, hurrying sounds inside my head, horrifying images of the cut, i don't even forget those words: cunt, bitch, slut. pourquoi veux-tu me baiser? even thou...

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• j.e continue.

  January 26, 2005

  en fait, on commence.on comprend ces mots--et bien, en faitj'en ai marre de ces gestes d'amour--mais bon, t'inquiete pas. as-tu vu mon ami, le maigre vieux?lui,il se maquille en noir.pour faire peur-- biensur,mais je me cache,il me trouvera pas,meme si je flirte avec lui,quelle coquette.j'ai touj...

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• i.nspired girl.

  November 15, 2004

  here it is. birth of a renaissance called rebirth. triple rebound, sock 'em in the face. fifty thoughts, racing, bouncing, holding themselves in the air for three seconds. falling. catch me! taken away; yes, sir, i'm ready for my next mission, gear up. five, four, three, two...stop. something isn...

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• h.ere we go again.

  August 23, 2004

  i'm depressed even more. i have become utterly dependant on another. it's sick and disgusting and stupid. i feel like ending my life. or making myself really sick. i'm so empty. like someone took my stomach and threw it away. flushed it down the toilet. i feel ignored and unappreciated, like i'm ...

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• i. always told myself…

  August 23, 2004

  don't get wound up over a boy again, lily.but like before, i'm completely torn between happiness and this hole in my stomach. it's like, my complete mental and emotional health goes into the garbage when he leaves. not only that, but i feel crushed, like he's going to do something rash when he's ...

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• o.ld times- oh, how i am depressed.

  August 22, 2004

  so, i'm not supposed to be depressed anymore. now that i have a boyfriend (one who has loved me despite), i'm supposed to forget my trivial headgames.that isn't happening. my anxiety is incredible; i wish i could see someone for it- but i hate driving so much that i'd rather suffer alone. i know ...

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• 1.2 girls band.

  August 5, 2004

  have any of you heard of the twelve girls band?visit them.they truly are awesome.-lily.

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• m.y weekend.

  August 4, 2004

  So. This weekend, I went to Morro Bay to see my aunt, grandma Mary, and my cousin. We also went up there for my mum’s birthday (which was the 2 of August). She is now 54 years old. Friday, I saw The Butterfly Effect with Kevin and later that night, I drove my mother and…

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