Who am I?

Sometimes I think I know, sometimes I forget.
Sometimes I need to look in the mirror the remember,
sometimes in the eyes of someone I love.

The simple answer - I am me.
I think, learn, wonder - know.
I write, play, and dream,
For this moment I am alive,
for the space of a moment.

Who knows what could happen?

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Arranging deckchairs on the Titanic

July 14, 2022
I started writing something else - actually started a few times over the last few days, but never finished what I was writing. The struggle is still there to not only get back into the habit, but for me, I want to write something that I find meaningful. Not momentous, not insightful, not perfect ...
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    Because I am so averse to confrontation I have been silent on too many things. I have such severe panic attacks that I can't speak up a lot of the time. People around me have taken my silence as an endorsement for their bullshit. I am starting to correct that, and the HEAT I am…
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  • NCBT
    July 1, 2022
    I am getting into the habit of writing every day again. This helped me years ago when I first joined OD in 2004, and writing has always been a sort of therapy for me. I also need to get back into the practice of just writing a lot. I decided that I am going to…
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  • A sinking ship
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    Last night one of my friends at school, a teacher who mentored me when I was first hired there 17 years ago, who has become a dear friend and a partner in my union work, let me know she accepted a job at another school. She turned in her resignation letter last night, and they…
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  • A brief history lesson
    June 28, 2022
    I am an English teacher, but I teach history. I teach context so students understand the literature and are able to have more rounded discussions. I teach Holocaust History & Literature. I start off by teaching the path to genocide. Historical facts worth remembering. Hitler was democraticall...
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  • Lost a friend – not even sad
    June 28, 2022
    I lot a friend today because I posted on social media: There is no "agree to disagree" when it comes to basic human rights. I shared it with a meme/graphic of a quote: "Agree to disagree" is reserved for things like "I don't like coffee." NOT racism, homophobia, sexism. Not basic common decency. ...
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    June 27, 2022
    I've fallen out of the practice of writing. I just don't write anymore. Part of it is I have reprogramed my brain to seek other forms of dopamine - which it doesn't really get. It's like the sad video of the kiwi-like bird that shows the effects of addiction. It's a little video called Nuggets. M...
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  • Trauma
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    I've seen some people start this way - so 'trigger warning' - this is about violent death and loss. I found out this morning that one of my former students was murdered by a family member Monday night. His uncle shot him and he bled out in his own home. I've been carrying this all…
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  • Waves
    June 11, 2020
    Well, I fell asleep during my Daily Meditation and woke at the end because it rolled over into some music my brain registered as not being part of the meditation. It was a 2-minute nap at most, but I actually feel pretty good. Still, I wanted to listen to the topic of the day, so…
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  • Stitches
    June 10, 2020
    “I like flaws and feel more comfortable around people who have them. I myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions.” Augusten Burroughs When I do these Daily Calm meditations, I sit in my desk chair and lean back - between back and knee injuries this is easiest for me...
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