Who am I?

Sometimes I think I know, sometimes I forget.
Sometimes I need to look in the mirror the remember,
sometimes in the eyes of someone I love.

The simple answer - I am me.
I think, learn, wonder - know.
I write, play, and dream,
For this moment I am alive,
for the space of a moment.

Who knows what could happen?

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Trauma

August 26, 2020
I've seen some people start this way - so 'trigger warning' - this is about violent death and loss. I found out this morning that one of my former students was murdered by a family member Monday night. His uncle shot him and he bled out in his own home. I've been carrying this all…
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