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This is not the end

January 28, 2014
I wrote my first entry on OD on February 21, 2001. I was in the 8th grade, my spelling and grammar were atrocious, and I was obnoxious to a level that I find hard to believe now, in my old age.And now, thirteen years later, this is the end. Or is it?Open Diary was the…
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