Single 65-year-old former factory worker atheist and liberal.

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Feeling Disoriented Without A Job

April 14, 2021
To Whom It May Concern I had expected the loss of work would  make me go through emotional stages. For many people they lose a job and get another.  For me I had a 43 year job. It gave my life MEANING. Structure.  I have gone from depression, grief and  feeling disoriented all the time…
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  • A Life Long Fear Of Nuclear War
    April 14, 2021
    The Russians have been massing troops in a very methodical way to the East of Ukraines Donetsk region and in the Crimea. "Methodical" is the good news because if the Russians wanted to attack and destroy the Ukraine they would do it in a lightening fast strike. It would be a paralyzing massive at...
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  • The Hate Box
    April 12, 2021
    I am taking the hate inside me and putting it into a box. This box of hate I put into the basement of my mind. If I do not feed it it will fade out and eventually die. It is like nuclear waste: It will fade and die in time. It is a monster that…
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  • Note For The Stupids That Try To Attack Me Here
    April 11, 2021
    A couple minutes ago a stupid person wrote shit about what I wrote without having actually READ what I wrote and comprehended it. Or maybe they were an idiot. Stupid and Idiot are much the same to me.  As an atheist I catch a lot of stupid and idiocy from people that are opposed to…
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  • Covid Reflections
    April 11, 2021
    April 7 I got my second shot of covid vaccine. Was I smug about it like so many have been? No.  I felt at best ... HAUNTED.  Extremely mixed thought and emotion. I felt anxious. NOT because I had any thoughts there was something bad in it. I trusted the science and people that created…
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  • Would I Listen To Old Me When Young?
    April 11, 2021
      I sometimes have fantasies of going back in time to meet my younger self. An Ego part of me says I could change me with an alternate time line. Yeah, go back in time and give bombastic lectures to my younger self about the bad things he could do or had done and how…
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  • I Flashed Back In An Interview
    April 10, 2021
    Earlier this week I got a call from a local newspaper. They wanted to know about what it was like working in the factory for 43 years. I rambled on and later realized I told the woman about injuries at that factory over the years. So many injuries. I got banged up every week. Bled…
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  • We Become What We Practice
    April 10, 2021
    This can be a cautionary tale. So far I have not become what I have been practicing lately. I fight it.  I have been creating a monster inside me by starting sentences with, "I HATE".  I created this in me. I am the one that needs to let it go and let it become something…
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  • Knowing The Boss After The Company Closes
    April 9, 2021
      In the factory I worked in up until March 5, I had a boss that I knew for 42 years. He started out as a regular employee and then with ambition and talent became one of 4 bosses. Over the years the company shrunk and that boss became the only boss there. He was…
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  • New Family Member
    April 9, 2021
    I went out for a few groceries and saw a house plant I was not familiar with/did not have in my little kitchen garden. Had seen a bunch of them earlier this week and I guess this was the most unhealthy of them. Oddly perhaps for a man, I felt sympathy for it and some…
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