63 year old factory worker doing the last work of it's kind in the last factory in the USA that makes what we make. Endangered species. Clean living person. Been there done that with the drugs, alcohol, craziness and suicide. Survivor ;-) Live alone with a bird. No criminal record (never caught!).

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Day 7

November 24, 2020
#7 day of no work. I always wake-up early and feel I am late for work. As I write this I feel a little guilty for not being at work. Other people laid off or retired often go back to their place of work. I do not. My logical mind understands it but my emotional…
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