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• my turn.

  August 22, 2006

  Sometimes the unexpected is just around the corner.So meanwhile our other bestfriend sarah has hooked up with Daniel, mikes roommate. while she was over there hanging out she began disscussing my situation with them, because of the falling out i had with daniella, sarah was the only one that i ta...

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• first time

  August 22, 2006

  June 5th i planned on sneaking out to visit with mike and sarah who had run away from home and was now living at their place.I was suppose to leave at midnight but by that time my neighnbor was sitting outside on his porch in the rain reading a newspaper i lay on my bed…

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• two and half weeks (edited)

  August 22, 2006

  the next two and a half weeks were just amazing, i spent as much time as i could at his place with him and sarah too hanging out relaxing, it was the first time in years that i didnt want to kill myself and that felt like a miricale. He gave me daisies and complements…

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• things change

  August 22, 2006

  Now if i remember correctly it was shortly before this that sarah had moved to her moms in regina, leaving me without a friend in the world to talk to other than mike...considering although me and daniella could be pleasent to eachother we still wanted the other to suffer horribly for what they h...

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• beginning

  August 21, 2006

  from back to front. sarah, daniella, nessa (me) This pic was taken back in the day, shortly before this story begins.I was 14 and us girls were hanging out at daniellas house.Daniella told us about a new guy that started working with her stepdad, she thought that we might think that he was cute.I...

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• giggle years

  August 21, 2006

  Mike jan 2000.   It wasnt long until mike moved in with Daniella and her family,he rented a room downstairs and it wasnt long until most and daniellas friends had  a crush on him...including myself.The next two years i call them the "giggle years" where we whispered and giggle...

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• Turning point

  August 21, 2006

  so when the spring that i was sixteen mike moved out of daniellas place and rented a a two-bedroom place with his bestfriend daniel.Daniella and i still wanted to hang out with him so he we would meet him somewhere and he would pick us up in his 1990 (i think) blue pontiac sunbird, and…

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• prior to the turning point

  August 21, 2006

  this is something that i wrote in my journal before mike had even moved out of daniellas house yet.it adds to how i felt on that morning.because i really was hopeful that i would be with him. March23 2001 Maybe my chances with mike are better htan i though i talked to him on the…

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• the next day.

  August 21, 2006

  I also talked to him the next day and we discussed my feelings for him and such.his reaction at the time was that i was too young and that in ten years things might be different. this is my entry that day March 2001: Great i totally feel like such the idiot.I regret it already…

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