Recent Entries

• Songbird

  February 18, 2019

  The moon is so bright tonight the birds are pulling an all nighter.

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• No title.

  February 10, 2019

  I'm a piece of shit human and no matter how hard I try, it doesn't change. I'm a nasty, horrible person. I don't belong here.

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• What I wish he’d understand

  February 4, 2019

  I allowed you to break something in me. Not me myself. I'm physically still here, walking this beautiful, yet damaged soil while being more than the okay single mother I ever thought I could be. You see, you make this about wanting to have and control mere mortal flesh where I see we've made a&he...

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• I stood up for myself.

  February 4, 2019

  The quickest way to get me off of Facebook addiction: Take away the 'delete' post option!!!! 😱😱😱🤣 Okay, that was just a little joke about me with a lot of truth. Anyway!! Granted, it was over the phone, the next day but I did it! I am so glad I stayed up writing those raw…

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• Title

  February 4, 2019

  Okay, I know what I'd said but i need to get this out of my head so I can re read this. I was too scared to stick up for myself. He freaked because my sister just got a male roommate (I stay there during visitation weekends cause it's free.) But here is how I…

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• I’m back. For now? 😏

  February 3, 2019

  I'm functioning at mediocre acceptance. I have an idea for my diary from here on out: I will chronicle how my life is going with how I react immediately, hopefully just in my head, then give a more thought-over approach to my current situation. I'd like to think this will help me compartmentalize...

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• Learning.

  August 19, 2018

  I've spent the day learning some ASL. I have the alphabet down except I can't remember Q at this time. I know hello, obviously! 🤣🤣 I know, I am learning ASL, thank you, you're welcome, eat, obviously 🤣, and that's it. I'm excited about this.  Seriously though, I learned the alphabet from a little...

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• I’ll never quite heal.

  August 18, 2018

  I was diagnosed with PTSD and depression, anxiety. I took meds for like two weeks last year. I'm not a meds person, the only thing I took successfully for years was birth control, and not even for birth control. I took it because it kept my skin clear of acne. Which, I would love to…

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• Better off dead

  August 16, 2018

  If I'm not working I'm laying in bed. This is a disgusting and dangerous reality. I'm at the deepest level of depression I've ever experienced. I'm ready to call CPS on myself and have my son placed with his father.. I'm ready to just expire.

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