Recent Entries

• Time to change.

  January 10, 2021

  The garden looks empty with all the leaves missing from our trees. It's been frosty the last week or two, but the weather seems to have taken a damp turn today. I do miss the white, fresh feeling of frost and snow. It always makes me feel like the world has been wiped clean, ready…

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• Rambling

  December 21, 2020

  I can’t stop the feeling that the world as we knew it has disappeared forever. The last 4 days have been absolute chaos, with hints of more to come. I’m terrified. It’s been a hellish day. Work is very hard at the moment, every client I speak to has a heart wrenching story to tell.…

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• Bah-humbug

  November 27, 2020

  I’m finding it hard to stay positive. The absence of friends is getting harder to handle and I find speaking on zoom and social media platforms lacking in real connection. There’s nothing to say anymore. No news, no plans. I wake up, switch on my computer, work from home, turn it off. 9 - 5.…

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• Lists

  November 22, 2020

  Nostalgia has been strong the last few days. I miss the simple things that made me happy. Meeting friends for coffee. Drinking at a bar. Eating out. Small talk in a shop.. at the office, in the street. The hiss of steam and smell of coffee  in a cafe... misty windows from wet coats. Smiling at&he...

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• Hello winter.

  November 1, 2020

  I find myself already longing for the lighter nights to return. The clocks went back last weekend and it already feels like there is barely any daylight. November is always a hard month for me, but I was prepared this year. I bought myself a mood light last January as I was finding it near…

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• Time out

  October 18, 2020

  18/10/20 - Unfinished entry I've had a really lovely weekend, it's been the first one in a  long time that's felt somewhat 'normal'. The majority of it has been spent outside in nature, which is where I love to be. Saturday morning I went a walk along the beach - it was beautiful. The water…

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• Metamorphosis

  October 13, 2020

  I've decided that it's time I changed. I've always been a 'people pleaser' and worried about hurting other's feelings - more often than not I put everyone else first. I blame myself when things go wrong, or people don't like, or treat me the way I treat them and...I'm tired. I'm exhausted from th...

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• Dreams

  September 24, 2020

  So, I've been quiet for a while and I suppose it's because I needed to take some time to sort out my head. It's been a difficult couple of weeks and now we're seeing the start of lockdown two here in the UK. I'm honestly not sure where we go from here. The world is…

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• Uncertain

  September 3, 2020

  Lately, I've been thinking a lot about starting a family. I'm not sure if it's because we're both working from home and have more time to ourselves, and for each other, but I feel a lot closer to J these days. He's now my husband, best friend and work buddy and we're still not sick…

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