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• Well here I am again lol

  October 18, 2023

  So I got rid of a major source of stress. I believe this source of stress was affecting every other part of my life, because once I was free from this I felt ten times better. Sometimes I hang on to things longer than I should and the longer I am in it, the more…

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• Life is something else

  September 9, 2023

  So I am back. I really am lazy when it comes to writing in here. I have no excuse, lol. On my free time I binge movies and show, or sit back and wallow in my pity lol. I have had a lot going on these past couple of months. I'll start with the good…

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• My heart hurts

  July 18, 2023

  I literally spent all of last night and today crying so much my eyes feel dry and they are red. It took all the strength in my body not to cry while I was at work. I really didn’t think it would hit me so hard. I hate feeling like this

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• We broke up

  July 17, 2023

  It was the hardest thing to do. I can’t Stop crying regardless of the fact it was for the best. I was unhappy for so long it was affecting my mood. I’m too in my feelings to write In detail. I feel like shit and I wanna crawl into a hole. I just need time…

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• Good afternoon

  July 14, 2023

  Nothing to report as of yet. I had written an update a couple of weeks ago but decided to keep it private. There are still a few things I would like to go over with Anthony. In some ways I may have made the wrong decision after that last talk, but time will tell. We…

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• Hello again

  June 22, 2023

  You'd think I'd use this diary more often since i subscribe to use it. I either don't have time, or i don't feel like it. I took VTO today, so I'm gonna write lol. So anyway, I am doing ok. I have been at this new job for almost 6 months. It has it's fair…

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• I tried

  April 15, 2023

  I had a talk with the guy I’ve been dating. I really didn’t get too far. It relieved a lot of stress and frustration to talk, but things haven’t really changed. He’s not getting what I need as being important enough to try to progress what we have. I’ll write a more in depth entry…

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• I really need to write more often lol

  March 16, 2023

  I either don’t have much free time or I’m just not in the mood. On my next day off coming up Monday, I think I’m gonna sit down and really write it out. I’m such a procrastinator and it’s pathetic lol. I pay a monthly fee to have this and barely use it. Back in…

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• New Year, New Job

  January 9, 2023

  I have been able to secure a new and better job (both in environment and pay) and walk away from that job that was causing me a lot of mental stress. I certainly could not stand to be there too much longer. I regretted from day one, turning down the job I actually wanted, for…

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