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Today was…a day lol

March 17, 2019
It wasn't a bad day, but wasn't a great day. I had a rough morning. Sometimes the things going on in my life keep me awake at night, or wake me up. I have trouble sleeping, I have my cry fest, I was a little TV, then then finally go back to sleep. I will…
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