Recent Entries

• Disappear

  December 9, 2020

  If I could just disappear and vanish forever, I would. I dont necessarily want to die, but I'm also tired of living. I'm tired of feeling like such a loser and wondering why I was ever born. All I do is disappoint people and get told everything that I'm doing wrong. Nothing I do is…

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• Feeling Down

  September 13, 2020

  Just one of those times where I'm feeling down and depressed again. I feel like I can't do anything right and just mess everything up. I don't know why I was I ever born. I hate my life but I know that it could be a lot worse, so then I feel shitty because I…

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• Job

  August 10, 2020

  Sometimes I feel like I can't do anything right. Today at work, I practically got told everything I'm doing wrong and that I lack common sense. Well, excuse me for doing what I was told to do. I was told to constantly be cleaning and can't just stand around. I need to always be doing…

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• Chest Pains

  June 15, 2020

  I've been having chest Pains lately on the left side. I've had issues with getting Costochondritis every year (sometimes a couple different times) for the past 7 years. It always starts off the same with little sharp needle pains. I don't have to be doing anything really, and my chest will start ...

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• Depressed

  May 7, 2020

  Just one of those nights (I guess technically morning now) where I'm feeling down and depressed. I don't  know what my purpose in life is or why I was ever born. I've always been made fun of and bullied. I've always been used by people and never had any true friends or relationships. I guess…

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• Realization

  April 11, 2020

  As always, I have my ups and downs. Lately I've had more downs than ups, but I think I realized something tonight. I've always been a pack rat and my room has always been cluttered. Even my desk at work is kind of cluttered. I refer to myself as messy organized. It might look like…

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• Feeling Down

  February 5, 2020

  They're times, like right now, where I feel like I'm not any good at my job and like I can't do anything right. I'm also afraid of possibly losing my job due to some things going on (including coworkers going behind my back and saying things that make me sound bad to my boss). I…

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• ??

  September 11, 2019

  They're times that I just get really down and depressed. I start to wonder if anyone would even miss me if I were gone. I feel like such a failure and like I can't do anything right.

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• Question……

  July 4, 2010

  How do you trust someone when you've been hurt so many times by so many other people? I know it's not fair to treat someone based on your experiences with other people because they may actually be different, but it's so hard for me to trust people since I have been screwed over in some…

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