If I could go anywhere right now, I would go to a movie-fied version of Paris in the 1950’s…all Technicolor pastels…and with all the sparkle of the celluloid that captured it…and I would stride down the street in my heels, walking a poodle & smoking Gauloises like I was the fucking shit, man. And I would be. I would be the fucking shit...

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MAYFLIES

July 22, 2021
MAYFLIES The bodies rode in on the tide- thousands of mayflies, their one day on this earth already buggered and spent, a shimmering black invasion we are forced to wade through at the shore in order to swim in the lake. As I float in the water, I think about my dear friend, the hateful…
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