If I could go anywhere right now, I would go to a movie-fied version of Paris in the 1950’s…all Technicolor pastels…and with all the sparkle of the celluloid that captured it…and I would stride down the street in my heels, walking a poodle & smoking Gauloises like I was the fucking shit, man. And I would be. I would be the fucking shit...

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Nightmares on a Racetrack

January 13, 2020
Nightmares on a racetrack. Every night, the same. For the past couple weeks I have had a dream. It starts as a compare & contrast between my touch and my uncle’s. My hands resting on the steel wool hair of your chest, I am soft as the fluff of the cattails that grow in that…
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