The Quiet
April 13, 2024
I have a choice today: to hang out with people or stay home in the quiet. I don’t know what I want though. Will the silence be too loud? Or will the people?
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Unreale
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The basics are: Libra; mother; Pagan; Hispanic; college-graduate; sarcastic; humorous; curious; shy & out-going (one of those people that the first impression is that of "What is this woman about???" and then you get to know me and the gloves come off and BAM); Democrat Socialist; tolerant; compassionate; loyal; mostly happy... There are more and as I age, I find that I am more willing to add more things to the list. So I am sure that I will refine this as time goes on.
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Ah Yes, The Effening
December 23, 2023
I have a tumultuous relationship with both of my biological parents. I am grateful for them. But I don't have a good relationship with either of them. I honestly wish them the day they both deserve. Just found out that bio father has stage 3 lung cancer and I am pissed. I am pissed because&he...Continue Reading... -
Turmoil
December 10, 2023
I don't want to write this. I don't want to write that I believe that my marriage is over. That I never should have married the person I did. That I made a terrible choice. But here I am, writing it, in the only safe space I have.Continue Reading... -
Let Me Not to the Marriage of True Minds
September 29, 2023
Admit Impediments.. I am poly. It doesn't change because I married a non-poly person. I am poly. I miss being able to be actively poly. I miss a lot of things now that I am married. I don't regret my marriage. But there are things I miss.Continue Reading... -
It’s Not This Hard
August 15, 2023
Just listen to me. Listen to the words coming out of my mouth. Listen. To. Me. I need a spouse. Not someone I have to remind constantly to be a partner not an additional burden. FFS.Continue Reading... -
Shadow Work on a Shadow Day
August 13, 2023
Yesterday I started working on my shadow self. Today I started the journalling part of it - or the fill in the blank and answer some questions about yourself honestly. I did part one and that is as far as I got. I want to take it nice and easy and not overdo it. Because…Continue Reading... -
Second Verse, Same as the First
May 2, 2023
I don’t want to pretend anymore. I don’t want to be angry. I do want that one thing I can’t have. It is SSDD and I just want a break.Continue Reading... -
Poetry
June 8, 2022
Stopping to contemplate The damage My brain will Do if this Gets out. I keep Touching The place Where we Changed each Others lives The instant The moment That Secret. Wanting to Feel regret But all I feel is Anticipation For that Next stolen Moment.Continue Reading... -
Just A Second, We’re Not Broken
April 7, 2021
We actually were. I have no illusions about how you and I were. I am not that grieving person. But I miss you every damn day. Last night I dreamed of you. We had conversations (although I don't remember verbatim what about), but things were resolved. You knew you were gone (or my brain knew....Continue Reading...
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