8:01 I had a good night. Aides put me to bed at 10:30. I slept well with minimal arthritis pain and incontinence episodes. I had a couple weird dreams but do not remember them. The aides got me out of bed by six. I went back to sleep in my wheelchair until they served breakfast.
I’m in good spirits this morning. But I say that almost every day. My mood sort of goes south as the day progresses . But today is going to be different. I am in control of my emotional well being. I choose to be happy and content.
I will never forget The Five Rational Questions:
- is thinking based on obvious fact?
- Will my thinking help protect me from probable harm?
- Will my thinking help me achieve long and short term goals
- Will my thinking help me avoid unwanted conflicts with others?
- Will my thinking help me feel the emotions I want to feel without using alcohol or other drugs?
Threehonest “no” answers tells me if the thought is rational. Also remember the ABC’s of human emotions:
- Outside events such as a breakup after 17 years.
- Thoughts about the outside event which can be positive, negative or neutral.
- Feelings caused by the thoughts about the outside events. Feelings correspond to the thoughts about the outside or external events.
I have been thinking very irrational thoughts about the breakup I can’t contro or change what happened I can control my thoughts about the breakup. My thinking is causing me to feel terrible. If I want to feel better I simy change my thoughts to more rational thinking.In short I’m just going to say F it and move on.
9:41a.m. I just got today’s menu According to the menu, they are serving country smothered chicken, mixed veggies, mashed potatoes, a biscuit and ambrosia for desert For dinner I’m having chicken noodle soup, hot dogs and vanilla ice cream.
12:59 p.m. I slept for a couple hours. I was awakened by a delicious lunch. I’m in a pretty good mood thanks to a nap, coffee and food. Best part is I feel awake. I hope to stay awake and tackle my book this afternoon
9:28p.m. I’m proud of myself. I finished two very interesting chapters in my book From Colony to Super Power: Unites States Foreign Relations Since 1776 by George C Herring. In these chapters the author discussed early American history to the War of 1812 and foreign relations during that era. I really enjoyed these chapters.
I started reading after lunch. I took a brief break for supper. Instead of hot dogs I had a fish sandwich. I didthn’t have much of an appetite . I only ate the sandwich. I also chatted briefly with Chocolatechip I said I would call her after dinner. Then I found out my phone isn’t working. I left a message for her to contact me in the morning.
I had mixed feelings about talking to her. On the one hand I was glad to hear from her. After all, I still love and care about her. But then again I’m just getting over the hurt of the breakup. Part of me tells me to take it slow because I don’t want to get hurt again. But then if she wants to be a part of my life I would take her back in a heartbeat. I truly love Chocolatechip. I can’t help myself in this respect.