Soo… two days a week I watch my GF’s boys until she gets home from school, she is usually home by 10:00pm and I usually am able to pick them up by 5pm but sometimes as late as 5:45pm…her boys are in 3rd grade and 5th grade…the oldest is genius IQ but some issues…the younger is also accelerated…the oldest is smart enough to wreck an Ivy league legal grad student!
I only have to man up two days a week…and these guys just wipe me out…it is like wrestling with octopuses (octopi?) for hours…they just kick my ass…the energy level combined with dazzling intellect ties me in knots…
Right now its 9:32pm and I have at least 25 minutes to go and I’m totally spent…I’ve been grocery shopping, cleaning, folding, sorting, dishes..directing…checking homework…(and I didn’t even cook dinner tonight because Mondays are Chik-fila nights!) funny thing is I’ve been hitting this shit like a boss since the school year started but every night I finish with the boys I feel like a fucking failure…just totally wrung the hell out…
I can only think…how the fuck is it even possible for a single mom? or a mom whose husband is clueless? It is totally overwhelming..just humbles me..
these boys humble me…I’m not broken but I am definitely humbled…I call my mom twice a week now…just to tell her how much I love her…so I have come to the conclusion that there is some kind of female superpower that kicks in when women become Mother…mom, MeMa, MoMai, Mama, mommy..whatever the hell it is…I have mad props for every mom out there that just feels like she is holding on with her fingernails…because I only do it two days a week..(and no joke I have a bottle of whiskey in the cupboard and around 45 minutes away from rescue I start hitting that shit!) but you ladies handle day after day week after week year after year!..
To every mom…from a totally humbled man (and I’m a man in every sense of the word, because I have always brought my “A-game” to what matters) you guys totally rock! Don’t lose faith that what you are doing matters…because it totally does! …..
My respect for every mom that is truly pouring it out into her kids is immense..
Anyways this video is dedicated to my GF but also every mom out there!!!
Sweetest and warmest thoughts from the deepest part of the Heart of the South!
—Beauty for Ashes