I’ve done it!
My Christmas present to myself was motivation to do what I’ve wanted to do for a long time, which is get motivated about my photography and art. Today I re-paid for my Lightroom account and started my 500px profile back up.
Am I great at photography? Hell no. Am I even good? Not really. Do I love it? Yes. Well, I use to. Before that whole perfectionism thing took over. That was annoying. But point being, I’ve been too afraid, and I’ve been comparing me with, well, ME!
I look back at the old photos I took when I was in college and the perspective and overall feel of the photos were actually pretty decent–and I have yet to be able to get the skills I use to have back–which no doubt has been frustrating.
But it’s one thing to compare yourself to others–it’s another to compare yourself to, well, yourself.
I’m fortunate in that I have a boyfriend who also supports me along the way which is just more motivation.
In the long run, I am hoping I can create a productivity calendar and give myself some structure so this whole thing doesn’t fall through the cracks again. Now is the time for change — and NOT because it’s the new year….because it’s about time.