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What? Huh? Am I awake? How’d I get here? Who are you? Who am I? What?!!!!!

That’s so how I feel right now. I’m totally disoriented for no damn good reason.

A few things and here ya go!

*Dinner was fab. I went "all out" as it were. the chicken got put in the oven with sauce, made some "bootleg mac n cheese" cuz i don’t have any milk. so i just boiled noodles, put some butter on them and then poured parmesan on them and it got all melty melty. It was alright, not super great, but alright. oh and some salt and pepper. Then I made bar b que baked beans! and peas! I almost made garlic toast… but I figured I’d save the buns  I was gonna use for another day. So yeah. and they had pudding for dessert.

*I won’t be cooking dinner tonight because I will be at a mental health thingy for jon until almost 7. I thought the appointment was FOR HIM, but i got a reminder call yesterday that it’s for ME. huh?! I guess it’s an orientation for the parents of the kids who get seen by the therapists. I have no clue. whatever. I’m just gonna do it. They better leave me alone though…

*Speaking of, I’m letting Jon go to school today. I sent a note with him for the teacher to send whatever disciplinary sheets home with him again today. I guess he has to write standards or whatever. I don’t know. It’s a mess. I had to call my brother last night to have a talk with jonathon and all jonathon could say is that he hates the school, the people are mean to him, and he doesn’t want to be there. I don’t know what is making him act like this… *sigh* I will leave another message for the principal letting her know that I believe there is something going on that isn’t being addressed. Jonathon complains of getting bullied a LOT. He says nobody listens to him. I’m not sure what to believe, but I know it can’t all be him trying to avoid punishment. So yeah, I want that addressed. I will let her know about the therapy blah blah and work from there. They called me last night, well a recording did, that said i needed to justify his absense.

*and here is where my son gets it from: I’M NOT CALLING THEM TO DO THAT. FUCK THEM. I hate being told what to do and how to do it!!!!! I hate that I can’t just say "i don’t wan thim to go" and leave it at that… nooooo, i have to justify it. They can kiss my ass. and I don’t care if it’s on his damn report card. they can kiss my ass TWICE. I have serious authority issues. I’m SUCH a control freak. I try to NOT let my kids see me "getting mad at the man"… but i’m sure i’m to blame for some of their resistence to being told what to do. Damn me!!!!

* I did a 40 minute work out. It was awesome. But somehow, i felt fatter after, like heavier. I’m not sure if it’s just the weight of the muscles i’m creating or what. but damn it! shrink abdomen shrink! That’s my focus. That and my inner thighs. I want lipo *sigh*

*I went to bed right after. I fell asleep almost immediately. Hot showers are so relaxing. It felt like 5 minutes and my alarm goes off. My first one anyway. 2 minutes later, some wacko is screaming and banging and having a fit on my downstairs neighbors who owe him $110. um. SHUT UP FOOL. Someone went out there and told him so and became a mediator (I think it was Hot Neighbor too… *sigh swoon* hot neighbor…) and they shut the hell up, but not before robbing me of my extra 10 minutes of snooze sleep! BASTARDS!!!!!

*i’ve gotten a lot of questions and comments about the situation with my siblings. i’ll address them later.

*I haven’t heard from RS yet. But if he doesn’t get to me by like Noon today, I’ll shoot a quick email to see. Thursday would work swell if he wants to. I need a distraction. I wanna tie him up and make him hollah. Seriously… I can’t stop thinking about the things I’m gonna do to him. so awesome. rawr.

*uhhhhh. spoon!

bye.

for now…