Awakening

I've been away from open diary a while. I'm way behind. I just haven't had the time... I'm ... I dunno. Don't know why I'm writing now. Guess I just feel like talking to someone and yet don't. Because I don't want to cry like this. I don't want to feel like this. Its like…

This is something that's kinda cool....   go to these two links and put what you think of me so I can see my windows! http://kevan.org/johari?name=lost_n_translation http://kevan.org/nohari?name=lost_n_translation

I've been feeling alot of emotional blahness lately so I haven't been writing. Its stupid really since that's exactly the time when I should be writing. why is it so difficult to talk about how I feel? why do I cower away, withdraw, into myself and my lonliness instead of just admitting to myself...

Of the many things I decided I needed to do this year one of them was "letting go". Mom always tells me that I have to learn to let go of my past. Its probably why I can't move forward. I think I've come a long way in past month though. So Sunday night I…

So I'm finally feeling better and due back at work tomorrow. I have alot to catch up on, but I promise to leave you all notes soon :) I don't have alot to say. Been laid up all week. Can't wait to get things back to normal around here.

Todd is back in our shop. yeah. So today was really busy and I didn't like it much at all. I woke up at 4am... took a look at the clock, rolled over and went back to sleep. Next time I looked at the clock it was 5:27am. BAD NEWS. I jumped out of bed…

For the year I need to... Go back to Yoga Tone my arms Practice dance Let go of some grudges Clean out some of the old stuff from my life Move out Change..... This year I'm going to try the Straightedge Lifestyle. Think I can do it??         Straight Edge From the…

Today was the first time in a long time that I felt okay... and meant it. I'm feeling a bit sad, but otherwise okay. Really okay. Hope all is well with everyone!