Baby Chapters

I never used to care what people thought about me. Looking back those were very liberating days. These days it seems that is all I am worried about. Perhaps it's because of my recent past and current situation, and the constistancy of having to depend on so many people when I never had to before....

       

So I am kind of scared because i keep getting period like cramps and it feels like my period will start...is this normal? I'll sit down and explain everything that has been happening up to now and how I ended up pregnant, I just need a time when I have the computer to myself. :)…

Well it's been an interesting couple of weeks lol. I'm not going to talk about most of it here because I am too paranoid. But I'll talk about some. I've decided to stop trying for a baby right now. It's just not in the cards for me right now. Plus, I still smoke, and now…

Well, It turns out I had tested too early ( I had miscaculated AF by a week), so I was due yesterday and tested because I wanted a glass of wine. Anyways still no AF today either, and I'm usually right on time.  Still a NEGATIVE yesterday though... Usually I also have strong AF feelings…

thank you for all your warm wishes of pregnancy...:) but stupid AF arrived not an hour after I wrote that last entry. With all her horrid pains and bloating and cramps....am I the only one that gets AF so bad? I get cramps so bad sometimes I'm screaming and crying and keeling over. Gah, it…

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Well to start with, thanks to everyone for their encouraging notes :o)TTC can be so frusterating eh?I wanted to cry today because Sean came back. Now Sean is someone who used to work at my job, and quit without notice, but because Wah (my boss) is so desperate, she hired him back, some two months...

Yeah that's right. My friend tells me a couple weeks ago that she and her husband are trying for another baby (they already have one two year old).Today she let it slip that she's pregnant. YAY. ... This is so frusterating. It's just so easy for some people. I work with someone who is  pregn...

Well I can't find a suitable doctor to go to. James won't quit smoking. We're in the middle of tring to move and two months behind bills. My parents keep praying we won't conceive. Is it still worth it? Should I make everyone happy and wait ten years, have a career,  no debt, and a…