Did he really think i would make him choose? Why can’t he be in all our lives? Why is he turning it yo something i refuse to budge on and why tf am i even crying over it, anymore?
My AE said enough this morning and he hasn’t said a word, since.
So, maybe he’s getting his tatts. Will he exclude lilly? He mentioned abandonment issues. I looked it up, its all him. And on the other end is me, but I’m the one having anxiety attacks, again. I needed something to knock me out, so i started taking the pills and now, i feel worse than ever. Benadryl, tonight.
No more of that crap.
Yes, i am still very upset at the way things went down, as if it happened yesterday. And it all comes down to abandonment. Ugh.
I told him too much. Or maybe he just needed someone to bounce thoughts off.
Either way, the one thing that always calmed me was hearing from him. Over 6 years. 3 every day.
Nothing at all.