I’m doing it!! 😆 I’m actually not contacting him. This probably seems silly to you guys, but me not being able to talk to someone is so difficult. I always feel bad and then end up messaging them so I don’t feel bad for ignoring them. But in this situation, the biggest help for me is having a brick phone (non-smartphone) as my main phone at the minute. I can’t connect to the internet, I can only text or call people and I have the game snake to keep me occupied if needed. I don’t know E’s number at all, so not having his number in my phone is very handy. Also, my smartphone that I use for WhatsApp, Instagram, Snapchat is over an hour away safely in my dad’s. That is the best thing I did. It might seem extreme, but it was becoming too easy for me to log in, check if he’s online and boom, another day wasted waiting around on him. I also may add, I’m not on Facebook, so having a laptop is great because I can’t log into anything on it that would have both me and E on it to chat on.
I did so much too! I organised my house, got a new home office and generally feel more together now. I’m planning to do some exercise and shower then have a yum dinner with my boyfriend. I’m excited!
How did I manage it being E’s birthday and me not being in contact with him? Pretty good. I got a Hollywood wax and feel 10 pounds lighter! Talk about getting cleansed! 😂
Last night was difficult though. I kept wondering how I would feel when I do get my smartphone back and there’s nothing on it from him. Part of me hopes there is. But part of me expects there to be nothing. And if there’s nothing, it’ll confirm his feelings for me. That he really doesn’t care and doesn’t want me in his life. It’s so tough and I’ll probably feel pretty low about it if that happens, but that’s next Tuesday. And either way, next Friday is girls night, so it will be a great time for me to dress up, feel sexy and just dance the night away! Hopefully not feel shitty. If I feel an ounce of shittiness because I’ll be going out in his city, I’ll make sure I only have my brick phone without his number in it. Best way to avoid drunken texts and instant messaging. If he wants to meet up, he has my number. I only respond to actual texts and calls now 😉
I feel like I can do this, almost 🙄
Till tomorrow guys – Day 3!