No Contact Day 2…

I’m doing it!! 😆 I’m actually not contacting him. This probably seems silly to you guys, but me not being able to talk to someone is so difficult. I always feel bad and then end up messaging them so I don’t feel bad for ignoring them. But in this situation, the biggest help for me is having a brick phone (non-smartphone) as my main phone at the minute. I can’t connect to the internet, I can only text or call people and I have the game snake to keep me occupied if needed. I don’t know E’s number at all, so not having his number in my phone is very handy. Also, my smartphone that I use for WhatsApp, Instagram, Snapchat is over an hour away safely in my dad’s. That is the best thing I did. It might seem extreme, but it was becoming too easy for me to log in, check if he’s online and boom, another day wasted waiting around on him. I also may add, I’m not on Facebook, so having a laptop is great because I can’t log into anything on it that would have both me and E on it to chat on.

I did so much too! I organised my house, got a new home office and generally feel more together now. I’m planning to do some exercise and shower then have a yum dinner with my boyfriend. I’m excited!

How did I manage it being E’s birthday and me not being in contact with him? Pretty good. I got a Hollywood wax and feel 10 pounds lighter! Talk about getting cleansed! 😂

Last night was difficult though. I kept wondering how I would feel when I do get my smartphone back and there’s nothing on it from him. Part of me hopes there is. But part of me expects there to be nothing. And if there’s nothing, it’ll confirm his feelings for me. That he really doesn’t care and doesn’t want me in his life. It’s so tough and I’ll probably feel pretty low about it if that happens, but that’s next Tuesday. And either way, next Friday is girls night, so it will be a great time for me to dress up, feel sexy and just dance the night away! Hopefully not feel shitty. If I feel an ounce of shittiness because I’ll be going out in his city, I’ll make sure I only have my brick phone without his number in it. Best way to avoid drunken texts and instant messaging. If he wants to meet up, he has my number. I only respond to actual texts and calls now 😉

I feel like I can do this, almost 🙄

Till tomorrow guys – Day 3!

 

 

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August 10, 2018

Good luck and keep strong! It doesn’t sound silly at all. It’s hard not to contact people we care for. This sounds like the best thing for you though.

August 10, 2018

@myhalohasslipped Thank you ❤ just wait until next week when I get back my smartphone, God knows what I will be writing about! 😅

August 10, 2018

Good luck! That great that you’ve been able to stop contacting him for awhile. Breakups are hard, because you always want to contact that person.

August 10, 2018

@justamillennial Yeah it’s tough, even tougher because it’s a friendship not a relationship so I feel nearly silly for going through all this for a friend who doesn’t want me to be a friend because he has feelings for me and I for him. It’s just messing with my head more than anything 😂

August 10, 2018

Good Job!!! I nearly spat out my coffee when you mentioned waxing. I once had my chest waxed when I was 20… the pain. I don’t know how you could endure that! THE HORRORS!

Stay the course! Super pumped for you! Keep writing!

August 10, 2018

@hrhkingofice Hahahaha sorry friend, I owe you a coffee it seems!! 😂 Ugh, men with waxed chests looks horrible. Was with a guy before who always shaved it. The stubble was uggggh. Not worth it. Fuzzy and free for men is all good! 😍 Thanks a mill puddin, I’m really delighted to be in contact with you. Let’s hope tomorrow is just as easy 🤗❤

August 10, 2018

@gethimoutofmyhead yeah never again. It was not even done professionally. My friend Dallas and his GF had this grand idea to wax it. The first yank and I screamed bloody murder. I ended up downing an entire bottle of cheap wine. By the time they finished I was bleeding from the chest. NEVER AGAIN.

August 10, 2018

@hrhkingofice Oh jany mack. Cheap wine and fuzzy chests, nothing wrong there!! 🤗😂

August 10, 2018

Proud of you, girl! Haha! I still fail on the no contact challenge cause my smartphone is always with me. And I don’t he’ll even care. As I know, he’s changing number on the 20th, and that way probably he’ll finally get rid of me. Haha! Good luck to my heart. Good luck to yours too. 😄

August 10, 2018

@justanotherrandomgirl C’mon hun, just take the sim out of the smartphone and into a cheap Nokia 3310! It’s worth the money. And I kinda wanna know how you know he’s changing his number on the 20th? I’m curious! 😂 I wonder if he’s changing his number will he text you his new number? 😎

August 10, 2018

@gethimoutofmyhead well, he told me about it and said he’ll let me know once he knows his new number. I just don’t want to believe it. Or I want to, i don’t know. Haha!

August 11, 2018

@justanotherrandomgirl At least that’s a timeframe where you’ll know where you stand so that’s pretty handy!

August 10, 2018

I am so proud of you!  I know we hardly know each other, but I feel like our shared experience makes us friends.  I know how hard it is to resist those urges to set yourself up for rejection.  The steps you’re taking to break yourself of the habit of him, are very smart!  Keep up the good work.

As for when you get your smart phone back, by then, I think you’ll be surprised how much less painful his rejection may feel.  You’re weaning off a drug, and time makes it easier and easier.

But I suspect you’ll have heard from him. 💝

August 10, 2018

@oniongirl Aww you’re too kind missus, honestly! I’m the same, with you, with many people here, the advice and consistency in keeping up with my progress and I with all of you, it’s just so nice to have! Oh, I hope you’re right, I really hope I hear something from him, but at the same time I’m trying not to get my hopes up. Keep your eyes peeled 😉

August 10, 2018

Good for you!

August 10, 2018

@thediarymaster Thank you so much! ❤ Let’s not get ahead of ourselves though. Next week will see how good I am 😂