As the title goes, Dark and Dirty, Twisted lies and backstabbing bros.
The excitement of being a med school freshman costs your dignity.
Being a closeted guy in a school full of alluring, inspiring young men (and women) was easier than i piictured.
I started getting comfortable in a few men sexing men circle.
In the beginning of the freshman year, I started to explore myself in the city. Closeted man in a big city like Kuala Lumpur? = Terrible Idea.
My masquerade fell off as one of these guys figured that I am on Grindr. That’s when things started to be different.
I seem to have let my guard down.
I was only seen as a guy with a highlight on his hair, to becoming one of them now. We started talking about men. In the open.
I knew that wasn’t right. I started to unmask my dark side. My sensual move has nearly become a part of my personality.
Today i realised this isn’t right. I should lay low. Despite the quick romance I had with an Arab man two nights ago. I finally unbottled the excitement to a close friend of mine way back in JB.
This city gave me a chance to be what i wanted to be. experiencing what i never felt. Every sight, every scent of the back alleys of the streets has made me into this complicated person I am.
I romanced in the balcony, with not a single thread on my body that night. I went crazy-which I never thought i would. I nearly fell in love. I walked in the streets holding hand with the man that shagged me. Even prayed before my own devil took control of me. I wanted more.
I found a daddy. But he was too clingy that it ignited all irk I had within me. Exasperated, now I doubt this will go along way. But this is okay. I only want a fully-sponsored life in this expensive city. Commitment seems too costly. Hence, no. But i might try to be a heartbreaker anyway.
My previous love has permanently moved to the UK. we hardly talked. Its a complicated ship we’re on. A sinking ship perhaps?
These new friends I made, what I learnt:
- Leave them curious
- Never talk about your past. Nor your future plans
- Take advantage of them. But dont be toxic.
- Never give too honest advice.
Happy New Year!. My wish this year is to be gym fit and shag a guy from Luuma (Yas, it’s a gay club)
Wish me luck!