The girl next to me part 4

After the winter break, we returned to school. I didn’t think I would miss her this much, but I often find myself watching the videos we recorded of her before I go to sleep. Sometimes it’s not helpful because watching them makes me smile, and when you keep smiling, you can’t fall asleep, haha.

I remember the night before school started. I made a present for my friend, and because i love surprises, i made another present for her as well. I wanted to rehearse what I would say before giving it to her, but i was so tired and sleepy so i saved it for the next day. The next day, i woke up late, for Godsake!!!! When I got to school, i saw a message from her, and my friend asked me, “Where are you?” I was so happy because she had texted me, of course! Then i had to write two letters for them in my car. I was worried about what if they like the presents or not. I know it’s just a present, and I shouldn’t overthink it, but it was spinning on my head. But everything turned out great, they loved the gifts, and I loved that they did. Because I had only mentioned making a gift for my friend, not for her, her surprised face was so cute and silly when I gave her the present as well.

My friend was also happy with the present, which made me feel great and joyful. I didn’t expect anything in return, but i have to admit, one day, the day i made a “pinky winky” for the girl next to me, while we’re walking to the class, she gave me a candy and asked, “You want it?” I said, “Yes,” and took it. It’s just a candy, right? But to me, it’s a present. And i’m keeping it from now on, i’m scared that if i eat it, i won’t have any present from her anymore. That’s silly, I know, but I LOVE IT, i really do! It’s a small thing, but it means a lot to me.

I think that when they’re happy, it also helps lift my spirits and makes me feel less tired with life.