I live for a revenge. That is not the right thing to live for, but I have plans and even if those plans are secret, I want to share them with you. I know, I am somehow anonymous here and so I wear the mask of anonymity to share plans nobody in my surrounding is aware of. I also wear a smile everyday, even if i harbour a grudge and yes, I will have my revenge.
I reached a Bachelor in Communication Sciences. I am now working at a Master in Media Management, and after that I would like to study law. Not because it interests me. I hate it actually. It consists in studying by heart laws and tribunals’ decisions. It has nothing to do with Justice. It is just turning the law upside down until it fits for you client. I know it because, back in the 2000, I was a brilliant law student. The best of my class. I studied law for 6 semesters before schizophrenia stole my life.
Now, I decided that I would go back to law studies because I want to know what legal steps I could ever undertake to bring the hell on all the so-called “caregivers” who allegedly were there to cure me in psychiatric hospitals, but actually deprived me of my dignity, of my hopes and of 10 years of my life. Doctor Livio, my therapist, needed a couple of years to set me on the right way and believed that I had some potential. With that kind of confidence, he made me self-confident, and here I am. Nowadays I know that my fellow patients are almost all dead, but there are others in that hospital. Maybe the doctors and the nurses do not even remember me, I was just a “crazy one” like all the other “crazy ones”. But I promise, they will hear my name again and they will have a reason to remember my name.
My parents do not even suspect that I have this project to go back to studying law. I am 37, I am too old to study. I know. But I spent 10 years alone in that hospital, with nobody really caring for me. It would have been the duty of good parents to care for me. They never visited me, not even once. I was there and I was the shame of the family. A schizophrenic daughter. Terrible. I do not think that my parents deserve me sharing my plans and thoughts with them. I will tell them after everything is set for execution.
The night is still long. The night has yet to come.