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I’ve just stumbled upon this sight. I am in the middle of a pretty big life transition (for me). I’m sure I need to talk to a therapist but I journal when I feel the need to get something off of my chest. It would be nice to have this as well. I am fresh out of a 10-year relationship so I am on my own and kind of figuring out who I am, what I want and learning to live with myself.

 

I have a lot of stuff I could say. But for today one thought I’ve had is a couple of people have told me how well I am handling all of this and while I sort of agree I cannot fully agree because when I am out or at work I am distracted but when I’m home I’m left with my thoughts. With all this being said I am coping how I know to and at some points I am breaking. Some of those times may be me actually crying. Some of those times may be me drinking a little too much or reminiscing about the past. Some of these times I am just tired of pushing through and seeming like I am perfectly fine when in reality I am not. I have to be to keep living right now but I am not totally fine. I get mad just like everyone else I have bad days just like everyone else but I feel that bad days or bad moods automatically mean it is because of what I’m going through. No one has said this I just feel that people think this. Almost like I’m not allowed to have a bad day because I’ve been “doing so good”. I really need to get better about not assuming because this is mainly all in my head.

 

Sorry to rant I just needed to get something off of my chest and I didn’t want an active response like I would receive if I picked up the phone and called a friend from back home or a family member. If you read this thanks for listening.

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July 2, 2022

I have been apart of OD since 2003 or so. The site was closed down for several years but came back. I was an idiot and deleted my posts from my teen days.

It’s a great site to get shit off your chest without being chastised by your friends. of course there are jerks out there that will hate. but that’s why it’s great to put those entries to private.

Welcome! I just came back today from a 9 year hiatus ๐Ÿ˜€

July 2, 2022

Welcome to OD.

The big thing I would say is there is no right or wrong way to handle things like the end of a relationship. Your body and mind are going through a grieving process, even though the person is still alive. I always tell people to just do whatever you need to and whatever feels right for you. Don’t worry about what others will think. If you’re having a good day, go do your thing. If you’re having a rough day, do whatever you need to in order to get through it.

July 3, 2022

Welcome! Iโ€™ve been writing in here since 2002. Thereโ€™s never a need for an apology on this website. This is a safe place to express how you feel and rant, get things off of your chest, etcโ€ฆ I think writing is so healing. Itโ€™s like getting it all out of your body. Donโ€™t worry too much about what others think. The ones who truly love you and care for you are not going to judge you.