I have been gone from this format for several months. A lot has happened in that time. At this time I am not really ready to talk about all of it. I just know I wanted to come back here and start keeping a diary again. I hope to connect with the people that I had added to my friend list last time.
I am currently dealing with health problems still. I am a type 2 diabetic, I have Crohn’s disease and CLL leukemia. It’s a lot to deal with. I currently weigh 140 lbs. I am 5’5″ tall. I was having a lot of problems with my medications interacting so I stopped the diabetes meds. I know stupid right. Yep. So at the end of December, I started having some vision problems. Yep, you got it. Diabetes is out of control. Not only did I have an infection, but I have diabetic retinopathy. So the infection was treated. I got back on my meds. But my vision didn’t improve. So the eye dr. decided I needed to have injections in my eyes. This would bring down the inflammation and reduce the fluid behind my eyes. Well, not only was I scared about going blind. Because for a few days I could basically see nothing but a big white blob in front of me. So I agreed to have the first set of injections. That was last Thursday 01/07. I was scared it would be painful. It was not. The prep and after-the-shots were the worst part. The next day after I got the gunk cleared out of my eyes. I felt better. The floaters I was seeing were gone after 3 days. And my vision has improved greatly since. The dr. told me this would NOT happen. That it would take 3-6 sets of shots before my vision would start to improve. I prayed on this so hard. I am happy to say I am back reading and I can drive again. So I am praying that I won’t need as many shots. And that I will be able to get a new script for glasses. ( I wore glasses before. But I had not gotten a new script for 3 years). I hope the dr. will be surprised. And help me move forward without as many shots. My next appointment is 02/04/22.
So I am back on my diabetes meds. Monitoring my blood sugar 3x a day. Because I lost over 80 lbs in the last year I didn’t have to go back to my old scripts for diabetes. I am only taking Metformin 2x a day and Glipizide 1x. No insulin. My sugars run from 80-145. I hope I can maintain this. I have eliminated all sugars, soda, and any other bad foods. I was drinking a lot of soda. I stopped cold turkey. I don’t miss it. Same with sugar. GONE. I don’t miss it. I feel better.
Some will wonder why I did this too myself. I was deep into a depression. I lost my husband, I lost several friends during covid. And I just didn’t care. I fell into trying so hard to help my alcoholic sister that I didn’t even bother with myself. My Drs. would not listen to me about how out of control my Crohn’s was. I couldn’t keep anything in my body. Well, the sugar overload in my body wasn’t helping there. My Crohn’s is in better control now. I have not had a flare since I got back on the diabetes meds. I had really fucked up my body. Now I pay attention again to what goes in my body. And I am so grateful the good lord has given me back my eyesight. I will never take it for granted again.
Wow, I guess I needed to unload. And I said more than I thought I would. I am going to stop here. I will try to stay on track with this because I think it will be good for my mental health.