Monday 04/27/20

Good Monday Morning.

I kind of avoided OD yesterday. I was in a mood. I can’t quite explain it. But it’s all related to the current situation we are all dealing with. I am over it as I am sure everyone else is. I want it to be over. I miss my granddaughter, I miss my son, I miss my life. I am grateful we are well and safe. But my mental state is just not good. I am trying to reason with myself. And I just don’t know anymore. I tried to occupy myself the last few days. I have read a lot and managed to read the whole trilogy I started. I worked in the yard. I got the mulch spread around my tree and in front of my home. But now I want to put flowers out I want to do more. Being locked down does not make that easy. I am frustrated. I want to do what I want to do. I am sure you all get what I am saying. I also want to hug my son, my granddaughter. I live alone. I miss the contact. Lord. I am ranting. Woe is me. Sorry I know others have it so much worse. But this is where I can let go and breathe again. I don’t know what the answers are but I hope we see some good changes soon. My mental health is at risk. 😣

Life goes on I know. The sun is shining this morning. It is supposed to reach close to 70 degrees again. Yesterday was beautiful as well. There is rain in the forecast for this evening and tomorrow. And the wind is supposed to pick up. So I will enjoy it while it lasts.

I woke up at 6 am. I have been up since then. I let the dog out and started my coffee. I read a little bit. I have done two loads of laundry. Waiting on the last to dry so I can fold and put it away. And now I am here. Burning up time online. Surfing Facebook, reading diaries here, and I will post to my book group when I finish up here. Then I will probably take the dog for another walk. Go to the mailbox and get my mail. That is a good long walk. And then just relax and do whatever.

I am not finding enjoyment in the usual things. I am sure others are experiencing the same thing. Everything seems blah. I worked a little bit on my diamond painting this weekend. I could finish it up easily. But my concentration isn’t staying focused on any one thing for long.

I took all my library books back to the library yesterday. I gave up on trying to read them. I tried several times to read the books I had checked out. I just had no interest. I am glad my reading focus is back. It is just certain things I try to read do not hold interest at all. I hope the library re-opens soon. Going to the library once a week is truly one of my rituals. I converse with the librarians and browse. I really miss it.

Another thing I miss and I know I mentioned this. It is second-hand shopping. I don’t always buy things when I shop but I love to browse thrift stores, the goodwill, salvation army, book stores, etc. I know it might be quite a while before those types of stores re-open. I hope it’s sooner rather than later.

I know I have mentioned I live in a mobile home park. I have been here for over 40 years. Of course, I don’t have the same home I moved into 40 years ago. I have a 1995 home. So not extremely old. I live in the older part of the park. I live on a dead-end street and have a nice sized yard. My home is second from the end. Well, the court was taken over a corporation called Havenpark. Since they purchased the court there have been many changes. Including a big rent increase. Also they purchase brand new mobile homes and rent to own. Well, for the last 10 plus years I have not had neighbors on my left side or directly across the street from me.  This was known as the quietest part of the park. Three months ago they moved two brand new double-wide homes in the two places I mentioned. The one across the street is being rented by a young couple with 4 dogs. They are fine. Quiet and keep to themselves. The one next to me well that is a different story. They started moving in about 2 weeks ago. It is a woman ( maybe 2) and 2 kids. It is going to take some getting used too. They are loud. You can hear the mother screaming at the kids. She leaves her front door wide open most of the time. There is no screen door on it. Keep in mind this is a brand new double wide home. It retails for $87.000.00. The rent on this home is $1500. plus all utilities. I have not met this family because of COVID-19. I certainly would love to know what her secret is. How do you afford the rent and also drive a brand new car? I am okay with having neighbors as long as they are respectful. We shall see how this goes. I do want to be able to open my windows and enjoy fresh air without hearing her yelling. I will remain open-minded. 🙂

Ok, I am going to get that last load of laundry folded and put away.

Sheri

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April 27, 2020

Good to hear you have your reading concentration back. That always helps me pass the time and increase my mood. I hope your new neighbors are nice and not too loud. I’d like to meet my neighbors but they’re not too friendly from what I can tell so far. 

April 27, 2020

@mamaqueenie518

Thank you for your note. I am really trying to deal with this isolation thing better than I have been. Mind over matter. But sometimes it is very hard.  I love the fact that I can read again. I love to read. Let’s hope once this covid-19 is done I can meet my neighbors and we can get to know each other a bit. I hope you have a great Monday and the rest of your week.

April 27, 2020

@iowaladylovestheocean Thank you.  I hope you have a great week as well. And I hope you can meet your neighbors when this is over and have some company. I know how it is to be by yourself. Other than serving my mom in the morning and to take my son to work I am alone all day. I can’t imagine being in your shoes though with no interaction right now. Thank goodness for OD and our friends here. 

April 27, 2020

I’ve always been a reader, but lately, not so much.  Still trying to get everything organized here.  Little by little I’m making headway.

I’ve always been very blessed having great neighbors wherever I’ve lived.  It really does make a difference.  Hopefully, you will meet your neighbors soon and find them to be friendly and courteous.  BTW… I love your photo. 😊

April 27, 2020

Sounds like the area where you live is really nice and family like.