New month. A whole new situation.
I am feeling a bit depressed. I am not sure leaving my job is the best thing for my sanity. I know I am sick and I need to eliminate the stress. But what am I going to do with all the extra time? Maybe I am dwelling on it too much right now. I am still feeling very ill, and fatigued from pneumonia. I am not sleeping well. My sleep schedule is all over the place.
There is no shortage of things to do around my home. I need to clean things out. Purge actually. I have way to many clothes and way too much stuff. But right now feeling the way I do I start things and have to stop and rest. I am hoping once I actually start feeling better that I am going to feel differently about leaving the job.
My job was very stressful. I was not treated well. I had to work all the shitty hours. I did get to work from home. I still have all my equipment * computer here. I will have to return that sometime next week. I thought I would feel a huge relief when I left. But I just feel empty. My co-workers all complain daily how they also hate their jobs and wish they could retire. Two of my friends from work are the same age as I am. Of course, no one wants to start over at a new job at our age. I would have been there for 5 yrs in August. My last two jobs I had been with the company 20 yrs each. So I have retirement =401k from those jobs. So my thoughts right now are that I will take some time adjusting to being a retired person. And if I have too much time on my hands and really find things tight I will look for a part-time job
I don’t really have hobbies. I do enjoy reading. And I do read a lot. I visit my library once or twice a week. And I could probably volunteer there if I wanted too. I have really worked a lot and haven’t had time for hobbies. So it’s strange to me.
Is it normal to be having these feelings of “Did I do the right thing?” I have to quit thinking about it so much. My son keeps telling me to just enjoy life and let it go.
I wish I had friends that were retired. I don’t know what I will do with all my time. I guess time will tell. Once I get used to it and feel better hopefully I will settle in and not feel depressed about it.
Today I am going to get off the computer and start working in my spare bedroom. Purging clothes and things I don’t need. Getting donations ready. We have decent weather finally. I need to go for a long walk with the dog.
I am truly thankful for each new day. I will find a new purpose.
*Reading: The 13-Minute Murder by James Patterson