Perfect

82 degrees with a cool consistent breeze. Laying on the porch swing and I could almost fall asleep.

my head is so full of happy and worries… thinking any minute I could be a nana!  And then I also worry about jo!  Worried if she has the surgery and worried if she doesn’t!  Everything I have read about growing tumors in the gallbladder is scary… hers is fast growing too it has more than doubled its size in less than a year! Makes me fear cancer… mainly because of her cirrhosis of the liver… having both issues and gallbladder cancer spreads quickly!  I am also worried they will do the surgery with her a1c high… adding another fear factor of blood clots and not healing

and if she is unable to have the surgery then I worry if it is cancer it will spread!

 

so here I am swinging on my front porch trying to clear my mind!

As of right now… I do not know when the baby will be here

I don’t know what jos a1c numbers are

i don’t know how serious this surgery is!

 

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3 weeks ago

why not ask the surgeon what he thinks?  I would be asking all these questions. then maybe you won’t worry so much?

kat
3 weeks ago

@jaythesmartone  you can’t ask until the day of…. I can’t just call him at home

3 weeks ago

I hope you can find some peace in the midst of all that is happening with Jo. It’s so much easier said than done especially with all the complications that Jo has. They’ve really come a long way in treating cancer though. I know firsthand and also know of many success stories from my friends who have battled this dreaded disease with multiple complications.  Be sure to take care of yourself too, Kat.  (((Hugs))) Take care

kat
3 weeks ago

@adrift thank you!  It means a lot for someone to understand my grief

3 weeks ago

Hope you find some peace!

3 weeks ago

Hope that Jo’s surgery goes well, and that your son’s child is born happy and healthy.