No. I never did.
I always loved her.
I missed her. I wanted her. I wanted her cuddles, her kisses, the mother, I always loved.
I grew up, wanting her all the time. Of course, then, I didn’t realize it. I was brainwashed. I was consistently reminded by my father that she was a horrible woman.
Yet, I wanted my mommy.
I always did, more than anything.
Her company, her attention, her cuddles.
Instead, I saw her back. Instead, I always had to watch as she left.
Mommy, wasn’t available like I needed her to be.
I grew up telling myself, I hated her.
I woke up from my grief.
I woke up from my anger.
Today I realized…
I always wanted mommy.
I always loved mommy.
I want mom.
The man who treats me like my father… Who loves me so..I just realized, always wanted…