Nothing is worth the pain of a broken heart.

I try to make the best of things, look at the bright side, even give people thousands of chances, to make things right when they screw up. I’ll bend over backward or walk through fire for someone I care about. There isn’t anything I wouldn’t do for someone if it ment life or death. I’ve always played by the rules when someone else was calling the shots. Respected thier wishes, space and privicy. And gave more of myself to everything and everyone in my path than I thought possible. Funny how things never seem to be that way in return. I could rethink the millions of combinations I’ve tried to change things yet it all boils down to one thing.. how wrong I am for giving so much.

my life is a rollercoaster ride from hell thats about to crash upon itself if things don’t change. I need to change  With a heart like mine, how can I? Love is never as perfect as in the movies. For some it might be. and for now there’s always hope. But thats even wearing thin.  I’m taking back control and shutting out those who continue to irritate me to the point of no return. This time I won’t drowned in tears and pay..  not for any one.