Today was amazing

i took a chance, i was really missing her. It was a really great day with her though. i get that the whole situation between us is very emotionally overwhelming, im feeling it too. In the opposite way to her though i guess. All my emotions just want to pull her in and hold her. Holding her feels like everything else, all the problems just fall away. I understand what she is going through can be frustrating, confusing and overwhelming. It can be hard to process thoughts when youre busy and cant find peace. We are all different and i need to respect that. Space does fucking kill me though when i miss her so much… 10 minutes to me is feeling like 10 years these days no matter how busy i am… but its not all about me. I need to suffer for the greater good. This is what i think is meant to be. love can take time… love doesnt need to be rushed. I do feel like a new man though i just need to be less selfish when it comes to things like this and let her process her emotions.. im going to keep fucking grinding though iv set goals and im going to get them! Love ya Nicole…